Non-PG13: Relationship Struggles

[bookishnerd]

I'm bisexual. My boyfriend's name is Sam and he's really sweet. Even though I'm totally into him, I keep having sexual urges for a female. He lives in a different country so we can't have physical contact. We talk on MSN but my wishes right now are physical. I miss having someone to cuddle and kiss. I know our relationship won't last to long because of the distance limitations but I don't want to hurt his feelings. I know my happiness is important but how do I tell him that I don't think we can date because of the inability to have physical contact? None of the guys here are interested in me but I want to be in a relationship because I like having that sort of really close friend. Whether I'm with him or not, I still won't be able to easily satisfy my desire for physical contact, whether it be hugs, kisses, or sex.

I rather have a girlfriend right now but that won't happen since everyone who is LGBT at my school is, along with me, still hidden for the most part. What should I do?

[Skeleton]

I think you should be honest with him about how you feel. I know you don't want to hurt his feelings but I think no matter how you go about it, you most likely will so it's best to be honest with him because he'll appreciate that more and might understand where you're coming from.

Isn't there any LGBT club in your town that you could join also to meet people? People at your school might not be out but there could always be people in your town that are out so it could be worth checking to see if there is.

[bookishnerd]

I live in a small town. There isn't an LGBT club and not being hetero is frowned upon.