I finally told him..

[Adele]

If anybody has read my last posts you will know for 3 years I have had feelings for my friend. he went away for a year and we kept in touch and he helped me through losing my mum last year.
We now work together and things moved on from texting, drunk phone calls, meeting up and bumping into each other on nights out.
I finally told him how I felt.
One night we ended up in the same club, long story short he kissed me and we spent most of the night kissing and dancing. Once we had both sobered up in the morning we didn't say anything to each other. Monday morning was weird at work and we didn't talk like normal for a long time. Things got better.
I felt so happy that night and I finally knew how he felt so it was killing me that he seemed to want to forget anything had happened
I text him one night to ask him about it. He apologised and said he was really drunk. I didn't have the guts to ask him if it meant anything because he said he only saw me as a friend before (about a year ago)
A few months went by and I dropped it. It was killing me. So I asked him about two weeks ago if he had ever seen me as more than a friend. (I was drunk so for once had the courage, although I know it was a bit childish by text ) he said eventually that yeah he did like me, but he really didn't want to lead me on.... I said that I liked him to, then dont. He then started trying to talk to me like normal.... Asked how my night was and where I had been. I just told him I was going to bed. The next night he has gone out with his mates and got pissed, he text me at 3am asking where I was, I said in bed, two hours later he asked again... I just said I was going to sleep have a good time.
The next day at work he ignored me. He works out of office so I don't see him everyday. Then when a coworker of ours came in he told him he was in live, said he'd met a girl but she already had someone, said she was beautiful and perfect.
He knows how much that would of hurt, I've had body dysmorphia and issues with my appearance since I was thirteen. I don't have photographs and I shared everything with him. He went on about her, skinny and blonde..
I just sat there listening to it.
We don't really talk.
I just wanted to hear what someone thinks I should do. Because as much as I hate myself for it, I still really like him
Thankyou for reading... I'm sorry it was so long

[Aletheia*]

What should you do? Move on. Don't waste your time on this guy. He seems like a good friend, but it seems like he doesn't share those feelings for you like you share for him. Maybe he liked you at one point, and was just too shy to say anything about it because of what happened that fateful night, however, it seems like those feelings have dwindled down, and it's time that you see this and move on. Until you CAN move on from him, I suggest only speaking to him when absolutely necessary, like at work. Try to keep conversations to a minimum outside of work, or end contact at all. It might hurt for a while, but ending contact with him will help you to move on.

[Risewiththefallen]

awww...I'm sorry move on. It will be hard but things will get easier as time goes by. Find some new friends, Find new hoobies, get out of the house and keep yourself busy as possible. message me if you need anymore help.

[Nicole!]

I would move on as well.
He's making it very clear that he doesn't have feelings for you (hence the weirdness after the night you kissed) probably because he was embarrassed and didn't want you to think it meant anything.
If he's going to tell you about this new girl who he's 'in love' with when he knows it would hurt you, then he isn't a very good friend to begin with.
To me it seems like it just isn't going to work out, so I'd stop talking to him and look for someone better.