[ForeverAutumn*]

If I never had another flashback again, or if I didn't start shaking around certain guys in my life, that would just be an amazing feeling. To feel safe ALL the time, you know? The abuse from my childhood has definitely been a factor in many things in my life, especially in the last two or three years.

However, if I hadn't been abused, I would have never discovered this site, and I wouldn't have met my closest friend, as well as many other amazing people I've met here. I also wouldn't have the perspective I do now. So as much as I hate the flashbacks and having trouble sleeping at night, I personally wouldn't change what happened when I was younger. It's a part of who I am and I've (nearly) come to terms with that.

And, I think it's great you're seeing a counselor - it takes a lot of strength and courage to be able to talk about what's happened in the past. So be proud of yourself. Take care. x