I can relate. I am always scared that my anxiety is going to paralyze me again to the point where I cant go to school or leave my house. I dont want my anxiety to control me and Im scared that if I cant stay strong all the time that it will take control. I think that your fear is a legitimate one because anxiety is really a scary thing.
Do you see a therapist or anything for your anxiety?
I wish that I knew how to be more helpful. But if you ever need to talk, please feel free to
PM me. I understand anxiety and the problems that it causes and the pain and scariness of it. You arent alone through this even though right you might feel like you are. You're not alone because I am here- that probably doesnt mean much but its true.