[XbeyondthisworldX]

I obsess over my weight/looks ALL of the time. I can't help it. It's really hard... I mean, I hate how I look, and I wish I could lose some(actually a lot) of weight... I feel like when I eat people look at me and wonder why I'm eating.... but I know that's not true, becuase when I don't eat with my friends, they like yell at me and stuff... It's just the part of me that obsesses doens't really understand... I just NEED to stop obsessing over this, becuase I know it's not helping.. I mean I haven't been purging and I HAVE been eating(mostly healthily too!) but when I do, I hate myself a little more... WTF is wrong with me?! Will I EVER stop obsessing over it?!