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Posted February 3rd 2015 at 08:51 PM by Face Up.
I had a lot of bad dreams last night. I don't really remember any of them except one though. I had a dream where I was self harming. I had self harmed a lot in it. I've never had a self harm dream before.
My self esteem has been kind of bad again lately. I can't help but thinking about all I ate yesterday. I can't help but just call myself fat fat fat. Fat and lazy. I'm going to gain so much weight.
This whole no class thing has been so frustrating to me, it really has. I am beyond frustrated at all the snow days and how it's screwing me over.
Scared for the math test. I'm screwed. Not going to passed.
Scared for my environmental health class because of all the group work. We have to work in groups on our HOMEWORK. Why why why? Scared my group and my schedule won't mix or something.
Been triggered a lot lately. I just want to give in and cut.
I forgot what else I was going to say in this blog.
My self esteem has been kind of bad again lately. I can't help but thinking about all I ate yesterday. I can't help but just call myself fat fat fat. Fat and lazy. I'm going to gain so much weight.
This whole no class thing has been so frustrating to me, it really has. I am beyond frustrated at all the snow days and how it's screwing me over.
Scared for the math test. I'm screwed. Not going to passed.
Scared for my environmental health class because of all the group work. We have to work in groups on our HOMEWORK. Why why why? Scared my group and my schedule won't mix or something.
Been triggered a lot lately. I just want to give in and cut.
I forgot what else I was going to say in this blog.
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:hug: [COLOR=DarkRed]♥[/COLOR]Posted February 3rd 2015 at 10:23 PM by
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Hang in there Dezi. Things will all work out and be ok. :) :hug:Posted February 4th 2015 at 02:47 AM by Thereishope 
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Hey Dez,
I'm sure some professors will be considerate of having the snow days.
You will get through this. Remember: you are in your second semester of college. I was still struggling last semester (my fourth) but if you stay positive, be honest with those in your support system and maybe use rewards as motivation, you will see better changes.
Also, note in relation to your blog about getting drunk, although I have never had such an experience, I do know from others that have that the suggestions about eating bread, drinking water to match each glass and ginger are very useful.
Things will improve and I'm here if you want to talk.Posted February 4th 2015 at 11:04 AM by Philomath
