dam i'm so lonely...

[UltraViolet]

Yeah, thats basically it.
You guys might of read some of my other posts.
so many you get why.
i dont know, even i dont get me, i dont understand anything anymore
Everything is so pointles, and im so tired of it all, of everybody, everything
I feel like my head is going to explode sometimes, sheer frustration about being frustrated.
i need to do something abou this, i need to want to do something about this
i dont think anyone realises just how crazy i feel
and how much i think about all this stupid shit
what am i?
i dont even know anymore
I'm at a total loss these days

[UltraViolet]

I've justy realised not only does this threads title make me sound really lonely and pathetic, but also it makes me sound American.
Nothing against the Americans intended
And im not sayin you guys are pathetic. As an afterthought, i just thought it was funny

[Stratus]

So,
I am new to this whole 'helping people out' thing.. And I know I don't know you good enough to really help. But I have read your poetry.. And without even speaking a word to you I feel like I have known you for a very long time. Oh and btw your music tastes are very similar to mine. I worship Blink 182, and Muse!
But anyways, what I can tell you is that you are such a creative person, you need to know that just because you don't know who you are doesn't mean that you are a nobody.
Definitely not a nobody. I know my pathetic attempts at trying to make people feel better are usually worthless. And I usually end up looking like a stupid "American". lol just stereotyping.
But I do speak the truth.
You are a beautiful person inside and out.
And I know this just by reading your poetry.
Feeling lonliness makes all of my problems seem so much worse.. I don't have a gf, I don't have a lot of friends I can really talk to, and I am pretty much the only child. So I am no stranger to feeling lonely.
But I realized that we are never alone, there is always someone out there that will go out of their way to help you. Whether it be a stranger (ME!) or just a friend. Your never alone.
I hope this helped a little bit.
And hopefully this didn't make you more confused..
But hey I try.

PM me if you would like.
I wish you the best of luck!

-Colton

[WillO'Wisp]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way, but perhaps if you are feeling alone and lonely, you need to talk to someone, befriend someone you can trust or seek out help. It's okay to get help if you really believe you need it.

[Prozac]

Hey there Lea,

I know you feel as though you're at a total loss right now but it really is promising that you're posting here and looking for help and support, you deserve that. You deserve help and to get better - you certainly do not sound pathetic. It is courageous of you to be asking for help.

Things are not pointless, even if they may not feel like it. There are things that you can work towards if you set yourself some aims that you'd like to achieve and there are experiences that you have not enjoyed. The point is to be happy, Lea, so do try to keep working towards that. You are not alone in how you are feeling. It may be a good idea if you are feeling lonely to try and get out and socialise, perhaps gain some more friends from a club which would also be taking up your time to hopefully distract you from your thoughts and feelings.

Take care of yourself.

[UltraViolet]

My threapist told me on Thursday to go to Uni everyday and act like i dont give a dam, take a break away from people.
Leave them alone and stay away from them as much as possible.
I am me, keep going with my work and dont let them bother me.
However, I havent been to Uni at all this week yet. Simply becasue, i feel like i cant, physically.
I dont want to leave the house, i feel like i dont want to see people. More importantly, i dont want them to see me.
i want to hide, i know i shouldnt want to feel like this, but i fucking do!!!
i cannot socialise with people, ive had enough, im exhausted with trying.
im so tired of everything