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* jayne93 OfflineMember |
Last Activity: December 1st 2009 08:00 PM
About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Sherina Jayne Gould
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- England
- About
- About me
- Hi, my name is Sherina Jayne Gould and i'm 16 years old. I've been having problems since may of 2008. The group of friends that i hang around with started to pick on me and make me feel unwelcome. This soon escalated into bullying. It took my a while to realise that what they were doing was bullying because the main person doing the bullying was my best friend. Since last year, i have dealt with my problems by self harming. I think the main reason i did this is because it was pain that i could control. This then became an addiction and i think that by talking to others like me and also helping others like me, could help me to understand more about self harming and hopefully overcome this difficult stage in my life. Due to my "friends" making me feel not good enough, i developed an eating disorder where i had a fear of food and this later changed into bulimia because i feel sick of myself when i ate. I am getting better with food though and my main concern now is the cutting. I tried to get help by getting couselling but it took 3 months to get an hours session then another month to get another, by which time my "friends" had seen the cuts on my arms and questioned my about it. After they continuously pressured me, i cracked and told them. We decided to make a fresh start and things seemed to be getting better so i told my cousellor that i didn't need counselling anymore and was therefore taken off the couselling list. However, i was wrong to be so niave. I stopped cutting for nearly 3 months but there was a texting incident in which they told me that they hated me, that i wasn't part of their group and that i wasn't invited to the dinner that i had planned that night. When i said that i wasn't going out that night because i didnt want to go out with them when they were acting like *beeps* they said it was "just a joke". However, forgive me if i didnt find it funny. Unfortunately, this made me relapse and i have been cutting since. None of my friends know that im doing it again and my family don't know either. My family have seen the cuts on my arms and have questioned them but i couldn't find the strength to tell them. When i went to couselling, i just told my mum that i was having a hard time at school at that i was depressed. I decided to join this site because i think that talking to other people like me could help me. I also want to help others like me by listening to their problems and offering advice. So if anyone would like to share their stories with me, ask me about my life or even just want to talk, im here to support you so don't hesitate to message me or talk to me on the chatrooms. Hope to speak to you soon x
- Details
- Here for
- I need help with my problems but i also like to help others
- Relationship status
- Single
- Sexuality
- Heterosexual/Straight
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- Sixth form / college (UK)
- Religion
- Christian
- Zodiac sign
- Taurus