I'm losing my mind even more now. I can't manage to hold off the violent outburst for much longer I think. I can't contact anyone who has supported me through all of this anymore and I just need it to be over already. I'm scared of myself right now. I'm cutting worse. And I might go back to burning. And I'm scared that I'm gonna keep getting worse. I'm flipping through unhealthy bullshit like a goddamn magazine. I can't stand dealing with this.

Now I feel even worse, ace wrap binding makes me look fucking pregnant. I hate my body.

Nono, why continue to do such a thing? Don't let depression win! In any case. You're stronger than that, if you continue hurting yourself, you will let it win. I'm sure you can resist!