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ok heres the thing...about 13 months ago on Christmas day. I woke up with my vision all distorted and everything looked somewhat surreal and unreal. I thought it was just because of the flu i had that Christmas. But it didn't go away. I occasionally saw illusions like the ceiling was moving away from or moving but they kind of went away. Because of this scary unreality feeling i got very anxious and about 6 or 7 months later i started seeing face in patterns and whenever i saw them i got very anxious and paranoid. I also got loads of faces when i closed my eyes but they changed very rapidly and they weren't anyone i knew. I first started seeing just eyes of people and now i see a whole face.i kept thinking i had schizophrenia and that i would soon lose it so much i would find it hard to interact with other people. But i recently went to a docter and he doesn't think there is anything wrong with me but im hoping its just derealisation but a long period version of it. Please if anyone knows what in going through please say. I have had ocassional thoughts of suicide because of the future looking hopeless and i will never get better. But if anyone has a opinion on what i should do i would gladly hear it thank you