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You forgot to put Alice in Chains and Mudhoney in your list of 90s grunge bands
Ps. i love the username. Im also a fan of the grunge rock scene
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Hey there. Welcome to TeenHelp. I hope you're liking it so far.
I'm Chess. I'm one of the buddies here - our job is to help new users, so get in touch if you need anything.
To start with, why not introduce yourself in the Arrivals and Departures forum?
I look forward to seeing you around!
About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Marley
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- Australia
- About
- About me
- I'm a 14 year old girl who doesn't feel like she was meant to be born into the generation she was born into. I'm nearly 15 and it kind of feels like I'm going to be passing some sort of milestone. I guess then I would be able to say that I'm a decade and a half old. Strange.
I'm admittedly scared of the dark, paranormal stuff, spiders, heights, deep sea, sharks, spider webs. That stuff. And my mum dying. You'll know why later, along with my problems in my introduction as to who I am.
It's a bit weird. It all is. I feel like I'm not like the others of my age. I feel like an alien, a freak, a weirdo. "Everyones different" they say. But do you ever get the feeling that maybe that applys to you more than others? All the other kids, they're up to the latest fashion, they listen to pop and all that other deppressing stuff known as techno and pop. Me? I have my own sense of fashion, I listen to rock, mostly artists of the 90's or the early 90's grunge music scene in particular. Mum thinks I have Aspergers, I think that there are just certain things that I get all weird about. I've been diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder. I'm paranoid. I have had deppression in the year 2008 when Heath Ledger died. Now I don't really have it. It's just lurking in the background. It's waiting to take me into it's clutches again the more I think about my problems. I can feel it.
I'm get obssessed with famous people easily if they have a quality to them that makes them different then everyone else, like nobody else. In 2008 it was Heath Ledger. From 2009 and still going now it's been Kurt Cobain, lead singer of Nirvana, famous for one of the most iconic songs of the 90's and in musical history. "Smells Like Teen Spirit" from album "Nevermind" infamous for knocking of Michael Jacksons "Dangerous" from the top of the charts. Although he is fading out in the strength on the obsession. I listen to Jeff Buckley's music a lot. I would say that he is the 2nd most listened to artist on my iPod. First is usually Nirvana although those two seem to be at rivalry with each other in which I listen to more lately. It depresses me to know that there isn't really any good music left. I'm a fan of Foo Fighters, whose lead singer was the drummer of Nirvana. And Adele's "Someone Like You" is a song I wish I had on my iPod. I have to check out her album sometime.
I wish I was more special. I wish I was more like other people of my generation. But I'm not. It's a problem and it's a contradiction. Because I want to be more like other kids but I want to have my own individuality. I have the other kids wear the latest thing in fashionable clothing and then me, walk through with my own sense of fashion, stripy knee high socks, boots, band t shirts and all, have people look at me and know that I'm different from the rest. But at the same time I hate people staring at me. I'm self conscious enough as it is. I feel like Kurt Cobain in that way. Being whiny and being contradictory about what you want.
I don't know. I'm still kind of finding myself. I don't feel like my fully formed self. I still feel plain. But I'm still growing. So maybe when I reach 20 I'll know who I am and what I want to do, what I want to be, what clothes I wear, what music I listen to...
And music is an essential part of who I am and one of the things I need to get through life and my teenage years. They're tougher than I would want them to be. I have low self confidence and regrets. I've made my mistakes. I feel guilty for not loving nor liking my dad. He hasn't done anything to deserve me not liking him. I just don't have that connection to him that every father and daughter should have unless the dads done something of a legitament reason to totally ruin that. But he hasn't. I just don't hold one bit of love for him. It's one of my main internal problems. It's causing that horrible feeling called guilt and frustration within me that I wish I didn't have as a 14 year old girl.
Life sucks right now. The only thing that could happen that could make this seem really good in comparison is if my mum died. She is the most important person in my life. She has been from day 1. I love her so much I think it will kill me the first second to know that she's dead. Gone. That I never get to hug her and tell her I love her. To be able to believe that everything will be alright just by the sound of her voice. And it scares me. We never really know when a persons time is up. And I never want her's to end before mine. It's something I'm to scared and weak to endure right now and probably for the rest of my life. I love her so much.
And here's something I don't get. How everyone can tell you to be positive and when it's so difficult? There's nothing good about me. I'm a whiny, dumb, contradictory, ugly, fat, talentless person. What's good about that? They say everything happens for a reason? What's mine? I'm just the result of one night of my dad with my mum 9 months before I was born. I'm nothing. I'm worthless and I hate myself.
So there you have it. A probably depressing introduction to myself that is probably too much information.
~Marley AKA: Grunge girl of '96
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- Single and not looking
- Sexuality
- Heterosexual/Straight
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- High School
- Religion
- Atheist
- Zodiac sign
- Leo
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Guitar Hero, Drawing, Reading, Watching TV, listening to music, going on Facebook/Internet.
- Music
- 2010's - Foo Fighters, Adele
000's - Foo Fighters, Eskimo Joe, Powderfinger, Jet.
90's - Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Soundgarden, Hole, Jeff Buckley, Cranberries, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Foo Fighters.
80's - AC/DC *their alright I guess*, Michael Jackson *He's alright*,
70's - Blondie, Led Zeppelin, Queen
60's - The Doors, The Beatles, The Jimi Hendrix Experience/Jimi Hendrix,
I hate Bieber, Nickleback, Dire Straits, Bruce Springsteen, LMFAO, Lonely Island in 'Music'. Grr. I don't like Pop or Techno sounds that get put on heavy rotation on music channels these days but those, I absolutely hate. - Movies
- The Dark Knight, Juno, all of The Pirates Of The Carribean movies, 10 things I hate about you, Driver.
- Television
- True Blood, WWE Smackdown, WWE RAW, WWE Tough Enough, Teen Mom, Teen Mom 2, 16 & Pregnant, The Dudesons, Rockwiz, iCarly.
- Games
- Guitar Hero games - 5, Greatest Hits and World Tour
Mario Kart, Smackdown Vs. Raw 2009 & 2011. - Books
- Heavier Than Heaven: A Kurt Cobain Biography
No One Here Gets Out Alive (Jim Morrison)
House of Night book series - Sports
- WWE if you can count that as one.
- Heroes
- The Joker, Mum, Steve Irwin
- Favorite quotes
- The lyrics from every Nirvana and every Jeff Buckley 'Grace' album song lyrics. I'm to tired to type them up. It's 2:43AM right now and I need my sleep if my sister is gonna wake me up in 4 hrs and 17 minutes.
- Other interests
- I don't know. Dinosaurs are really interesting. And people and their life story. Thats why I read biographies. I wanna read something on Dinosaurs now that I mention it.
I used to be a bit of a Space and Dinosaur nerd in the first two grades of school. Well not a nerd. Just a good grasp on the basic information about them.