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idk what i thing im going to get from this site but i found it today and thought maybe it would be good for me but im not sure about anything anymore

So, i cut today for the first time, truthfully i dont know why i didnt do it sooner. I guess ive had enough of the stuff that happens in my daily life and home and wish i ended it 5 years ago when i was on the verge of doing it. My mum doesnt know how i feel but i couldnt tell her if i wanted to anyway. I feel like she hates me because todya she told me that she hopes that one day ill need her or anyone and no one will be there to help.....where has she been for the past five years? why didnt she help me before things got this bad?????????