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My mind wants me to be normal, but what happens isn't what I want. It's like my body and mind are completely separate and no matter what I think, or wish to do, I never know what I'll really end up doing. For example, I'll think in my head "Today sucks, I'm so sad I just want to cry." but on the outside I laugh and jump around and act like everything's okay. I can't help it. I don't smile on purpose, I can't control it. I don't want to hide my emotions, because if I do, I fear I'll feel even more volcanic inside...Does ANYONE know how to end all of this?