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Last Activity: February 24th 2014 06:59 PM
About Me
- Basics
- Name
- Jasmyne
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- Earth c:
- About
- About me
- I'm not really an interesting person. :I I'd say I'm pretty boring, but people have their own opinions. :) I'm 14 years old, and I moved to Dubai, UAE, 8 1/2 months ago. I don't feel like I fit in here, nor do I feel like I belong here. I'm not usually the quiet type, but lately I haven't felt like myself.
I have a problem that not many people know about, and yes, I've tried to stop multiple times. I am a cutter. I have problems trying to stop. I feel like I'm suffocating when I don't do it, and when I try to stop, I always end up relapsing or breaking down. I've tried therapy and other websites. I've even talked to my best friend and parents about it. Nothing helps.
I don't think getting into why I started cutting would be appropriate to put on the internet. So, I'll just explain the self harm techniques I've used....
1.) When I was in 4th grade, I started scratching my arms when I was sad/ upset etc.
2.) When I got to 6th grade, I found a sharp tool and scratched my arms and legs when I felt sad/ upset/ mad etc.
3.) When I was in 7th grade, I would find more damaging ways to feel external pain. I would burn my legs with hot lighters or touch a lit match to my leg. I still do this occasionally..
4.) When I got to 8th grade I started using a razor blade. I would press it onto my wrist, side, thigh, or foot and slide it slowly so that I could feel the opening of my skin.
5.) Now, in 9th grade, I burn, cut, and sometimes scratch myself to cope with the way I feel.
I've had this problem for a very long time and can't remember how I thought about these things. I can't remember why I would scratch myself, I just remember that the tingling and cool feeling would calm me for a few hours. This method of coping is probably the worst method anyone could use. It works for me, but I know I need to stop.
I need help. I need people to help me end this. I'm tired of hiding, and I'm ready to let go and find new ways. If you're reading this...please help me. I need someone. </3
- Details
- Here for
- Like to help and be helped
- Relationship status
- Single
- Sexuality
- Undecided
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian/White
- Education
- High School
- Zodiac sign
- Pisces
- Interests
- Hobbies
- Sleeping, and cuddling. c:
I also like meeting people that have similar problems to mine. c: - Music
- Easy rock, rap, country, ya know, the normals. :3
- Movies
- Frozen, Charlie and The Chocolate Factory, The Grinch.. :)
- Television
- >.< I don't really watch TV anymore..
- Games
- I play games with the voices in my head. That's about it. :I
- Books
- Romantic books are my favorite, but I'll read pretty much anything. c:
- Sports
- I don't play any sports recently, but I love cheerleading, and I like to watch football. <3
- Heroes
- My Best Friend, Kirsten. <3
- Favorite quotes
- Sometimes looking at the past makes moving forward easier.
-Me. - Other interests
- I like to do random research about people like me at some random time in the middle of the night. :3