Don't know what to do...

[Vaughndy7]

The last couple of months have been really hard. No big life changing event or anything has happened but I have been very depressed. I have resorted to cutting, drinking, "robotripping", and ODing on Tylenol. A while after all of this started I did manage to tell a friend. She has really tried to help but I just feel like I am bothering her with these problems even though she says I'm not. One night I was really planning on just ending it and I was really gonna do it when I got a text from my now boyfriend asking me out. That text saved my life. It was able to get through to me and show me that everyone around me did care and was trying to help.
A few months after everything started again I learned that I soon had a doctors apt and I decided that I wanted to tell the doctor but before that I would have to tell me mom. Telling her was the hardest thing I have ever done, even if I did only tell her about the cutting and Tylenol.
At the time when I told my doctor I did want to be able to talk to a therapist as I thought that was the best way to get help. At this point I really don't want to because I know that since all of my problems are harming myself they will have to tell my parents and I don't want them to know everything. Over the last month I have also developed bulimia.
Even my friend and boyfriend are starting to feel a bit hopeless because they feel that they are not helping enough and I can't help them to see that even if it might not seem so, they have.
I just dont know what to do. I know what I am doing is all bad but I feel like I can't stop. I am stressed out over everything and the drinking was my one relaxation but I have taken too many drinks from my parents cabinets and I don't want them to realize.
Sorry this was so long. I feel lost and hopeless and don't know what to do.

[Ab123]

Ik it's hard to stop doing something or quitting something. I have my own problems I don't tell people. You have people who care about u and want to help you, which is more than I have. Ik what it's like to be depressed but try to find somthing other than cutting or taking pills. I'm really sorry of I'm not helpful. Try to think happy thoughts and lets ur friends help you. Ik it's hard asking for help but it will help trust me

[Vaughndy7]

I have asked for help and I really am trying to stop but it is really hard and I feel like my friends are getting frustrated with me because they are trying to help and I am still doing things. I just want things to go back to normal to when I was happy. I hate having terrible thoughts when I know that everyone around me would be devastated if I went through with it.

[survivor16]

I'm sorry you are struggling so much.
But you need to talk to your therapist about everything! The things is, you dont have to feel like this anymore...
You just have to be willing to talk about these things and be super open about everything you are feeling and thinking.
I know what you are going through, and believe me, recovery is NOT any easy thing, but it's so worth it...

Your therapist might not have to tell your parents unless they think it's necessary. If they do need to, you need to allow that.
Your parents need to know whats going on in your life. I know you dont want them to be sad, but it needs to be done so you can heal properly.
They will still love you, and anybody would be sad to find out that someone they love is hurting themselves. But it is something you are going through, and they should know about it.

I hope you are okay, but you really need to talk to a professional about everything that's going on for you. The drinking, bulimia, depression, ect. You CAN feel better, I know this.

Good luck!
Message me anytime.
Shelby

[Ab123]

Ik it really hard to stop but trust me ur friends care about u and know its hard to just quit somthing. All you can do is try your best. If you ever need help I can try to help you.