Hi, I've recently started having suicidal thoughts again. NOthing in my life is working out right. My dad doesn't care about me, We've got no money, people in school think I'm just some walking joke. I get called fat, and ugly. I took two years off school the last time I was feeling like this to recover and now my grades have slipped drastically. My friend laughs at me when she's got a higher grade than me. Recently someone I knew died, and at her wake, someone started to chuck food at me and now at school she still does it. When I was in primary school, they thought i would be fine in secondary school. I was known as the smart one. And now I'd be suprised if I pass any of my GCSE's. I just feel that there's no point in life if you don't see a future. I've never had a boyfriend and boys ask me out for a joke. After I say no they'll say I never had a chance with them anyway. I keep thinking that if I dissapeared it would make everyone happy as noone likes me anyway. I nearly took my life this morning, but my mum came in and stopped me, by writing me a letter. The thoughts still haven't gone and I don't know what to do.
I've tried telling my friend before with my other friend backing me up. We both said that it makes us feel stupid when she shoves it in our faces. I think after this experience I know who my real friends are.
You'll get that job. I know you will.
Thank you Billie, for taking the time out of your life to reply to me and mostly, for giving me hope.