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ImaginedReality July 21st 2012 06:00 AM

Am I the only one???
Horrible summer. Watching literally everyone around me being so happy and having fun with all their friends and boyfriends/girlfriends and I'm the only lonely freak without any friends at all:( It's so suffocating to see so many happy people and knowing I'm so far from that...I can't even do something as simple as TALK to people because of my shyness/social anxiety problems. Feels like they're just shoving their f*cking happiness in my face all the time just to torture me with it and it's making me just want to give up. what's the point? I feel so disconnected from people and lonely all the time...none of those happy people even notice I exist. Even when I've tried to talk to people, it's been a huge failure. I completely fail at life. I'm 21 years old now and have never even had a boyfriend:( It's so embarrasing and depressing...and I also found a few days ago that I can't even take anti-anxiety or depression pills for all this because of another health condition! That was the one thing that could've helped me and now I don't even have that anymore:'( I don't know what I can even do anymore...I really think just killing myself would be like a heavenly relief, rather than having to suffer through this pain every second of every day:( I don't see any point in trying anymore honestly if I'm always gonna be like this. I don't even have any friends on here cause they all have their own friends and groups just like in real life:(

UnicornGurl July 21st 2012 06:18 AM

Re: Am I the only one???
Aw, Dont say that!
I feel the same all the time!
i cant have a boyfriend because of my religion.
Find a hobby and make friends!
Join a club, or go jogging, orgo to the beaach.
You dont know who youll meet!
Stay Strong & hang in there!

Ab123 July 21st 2012 07:15 AM

Re: Am I the only one???
Your not alone I have the same problem as you. Everyone I know is happy while ive had the worst summer of my life. I got a lot of anxiety to caused my mom and life. I've never had a gf and I'm 19. In the eyes of my own parents im a failure. I'm sorry I'm no help but your not alone. I guess all we can do is hope life gets better

DeletedAccount20 July 21st 2012 01:56 PM

Re: Am I the only one???
You aren't the only one with social anxiety, I have it as well. I find it easier to socialize online rather than face-to-face. It's not ideal, you need physical and verbal contact, but it's a start. You learn to form relationships and friendships online, even though it's not the same as in real life. You can't go to the mall with them, but you can watch television or a move with them over Skype. Teen Help is a great place to make friends. Come around more often, join in on chat and post in the General and Games forums.

There's no reason to kill yourself because of all this. You're still pretty young and have a lot to live for. As someone else said, you can join clubs and sports. You'll find a skill you have and put it to work! :)

Hang in there, all right?

CatietheInsane July 22nd 2012 08:43 AM

Re: Am I the only one???
I feel the same. I just gradated. All my friends are pregnant or married. My boyfriend is away for two months but I'm kinda glad we need the distance we've been fighting alot. And he just found out about my depression but he thinks its a joke. He doesn't understand. No one does.
But yeah I know what you mean. Everytime I get on facebook I see posts of people happy and everything and it's just upsetting

CaughtInMyHead July 22nd 2012 08:19 PM

Re: Am I the only one???
I'm sorry you feel this way, I know how much it hurts to feel alone and on the outside - I've felt this way since I was a little girl. Social anxiety's a b*tch, I wish no one had to suffer with it, butdon't give up. This doesn't have to be the end for you, you're still very young and have years ahead of you to change things, make your life into what you want it to be, nothings impossible. Get out of the house, do things you like to do - you don't need people to do fun things. Go places you like to go, and talk to the people around you. Join some sort of club, group, volunteer thingy mabobber, etc. Tell yourself that you don't care what anyone else things of you, that you are you and if they don't like that then it's their problem - train yourself to not care what people think. Just talk about whatever comes to mind, even if you get shy a lot of people like shy people - a lot of guys like shy girls, it's sweet and girly. Start small and build up. You can do this, don't give up - you've made it this far, your life doesn't need to be over yet.

I wish you the best

Wildflower2009 July 23rd 2012 03:03 AM

Re: Am I the only one???
I have never had many friends... and the few I did have ditched me for their bf's (who are jerks)... And I cant take anti-anxiety meds because of the side effects. They make my anxiety and depression worse.

Point is... Your not alone! Dont give up!

And you can be my friend on here! I dont have a group. Lol. I dont have any friends on here at all! :hug:

ImaginedReality July 26th 2012 03:07 PM

Re: Am I the only one???
Hey guys, thanks so much for everything you said. It helps to know I'm not the only one going through this. It's easy to think everyone around me is so perfect and happy. Even on here..I've been wanting to post more but in the chat but everyone seems to be having fun talking to each other and i'm just that random one that jumps in lol. It's just depressing to feel like you can't do anything though. Not even something as simple as talking:/ and now the anxiety is ruining my health so I won't even be able to go outside:( it's all just too hard..

NevermindMe July 27th 2012 06:12 PM

Re: Am I the only one???
I've felt quite lonely this summer as well. I've never had many friends, but this year I felt there were some people I would keep in contact with over the summer. As luck would have it, they're all out of town, taking summer classes or at camp. Although I planned on joining some kind of camp or class, my grandmother has recently found out she has severe cancer, and so I needed to help fund my mother's plane ticket to visit her mother, as well as seeing how my mother is going to be in and out of town, and my father has work I'd be unable to get a ride anywhere. That turned into quite the story, my point is: I'm finding ways to keep entertained at home. I've been reading, watching movies, listening to music and overall just staying at home and enjoying my time. It's summertime, and you probably have free time. Spend one summer just enjoying being alone. If you spend your time moping about not going out and doing things, you certainly won't have any fun at all.

You're young, and you have no school/work right now, so make the best of it. The whole world is yours right now. Killing yourself over this isn't a good decision.

- Justin

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