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Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

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Alone, depressed and hopeless. - January 16th 2013, 09:18 AM

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So I may as well make this as quick as possible.
I'm 16, I have severe depression, I self harm occasionally and have reoccurring suicidal thoughts.
Today was the last day I saw my face-to-face counselor since she was only on contract.
I live in a rural area so there isn't really any help available so please don't say go see someone because I can't there isn't anyone..
I have tried helplines and I am using one although it still feels like cyber space, just doesn't feel real..
I have seen counselors, a psychiatric nurse and a psychiatrist, along with school counselors and I'm still as depressed as i was 2 years ago. The only difference is that I now put a smile on my face regardless of how I feel because I don't want to hurt or worry anyone
I just feel like nothing has is going to ever work.
I don't believe I'm going to fully 'heal'.
I've seen Lots of people and been on medication but nothing has worked.
So now I'm alone & believing that any help i get won't make a difference.
I really don't see why I should stay any longer, I don't think I'm strong enough to deal with the thoughts,emotions,temptations and cravings.
Every time I walk over a bridge I stop.
Every time I see a train I stop and stare at it.
And Every time I see a rope I picture a noose and feel happy
What's left of me...


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Re: Alone, depressed and hopeless. - January 16th 2013, 03:04 PM

I know what you mean
I really don't think anyone ever fully "heals"
It's always going to be that daily battle for control.
But the thing that will get you through it is the fact that your not alone.
You are strong enough!
You may not have help out there but u do have help on here.
Don't give up on yourself! You deserve to have a happy life.
Therapy never helped me. I went to this lady for like 3 months and my mom stopped sending me cause she couldn't afford it.
But I'm doing fine healing on my own, with help from other self harmers.
So believe me u can get through this.
I believe u can get through this.


If u ever want to talk KIK me nataliabundy
Or PM me


Stay Strong <3


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I know what you're feeling
Words like those won't steal your glow,
you're one in a million" ~ Britt Nicole

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Re: Alone, depressed and hopeless. - January 19th 2013, 05:47 AM

I'm really sorry you feel so bad like this. I see that you do deserve happiness. Although I'm at a loss for words... I'm here if you need someone to talk to.

If you feel suicidal please call a hotline. Your life is worth it. Everyone's here for a reason. <3

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