Should I have done more?

[xxprincessxx]

So I've been having a really bad week, and I go to a relatively small school where everybody really knows everybody, and it's relatively nice. I really do think that I have a great support group with my friends and some of my professors, but I just don't feel like I can always rely on having somebody to talk to.

I went and spoke with one of my professors today just because I have been having a really crummy week. And he just asked the question of "do you feel safe." That's been my issue for the longest time, I honestly don't know, I told him "yeah, I did" but I'm unsure. I think suicidal thoughts " it would be easier if I weren't around," "I could do it this way," etc. I know how I would do it, but I don't think I'd ever actually do it. But what happens if I do decide to do it. Is this even a problem or am I just making it out to be much more than it actually is? Should I have told him the truth?

It's obviously to late to go back and say otherwise now. But should I have said something more? I feel like if I were ever actually "suicidal" he would be the person that I would go and tell....but is there any point bringing something like that up even if I'm not sure?

I'm really just completely unsure. I can't go back and talk to him for at least a few more weeks, and I don't know, I'm just tired of doing everything alone. :/

Hi, Sammie.

I don't think telling him no was a good choice although I understand lying to hide your true self. It's just my view, but I honestly think you should go back in a few weeks and tell him. Explain that you were scared to tell someone and confess. He might appreciate your honesty and try to help you. I know the thoughts are just thoughts, but they can definitely progress from there and I just really want you to have someone in real life that knows about it and could help you. You don't have to do this alone, hun. Let people in. You can write the confession on a letter if you want. May make it easier.

Stay Strong <3

[Melancholia.]

Hey there,

I agree with Christabel that maybe you should have told him the whole truth. Even though you aren't sure, it must be something significant and important if you are thinking about it that much, and maybe it can be really beneficial to have this teacher as someone in your support system. I don't think he'll be mad at you if you came back to him and told him everything else. I think that as long as you said that you were scared and unsure, he'll understand completely and just do what he can to get you the support you deserve. So, maybe once those few more weeks pass, just go back to him and sit down with him and this time tell him everything that is going on. You certainly don't have to do everything alone, and he's there to help!

Stay strong!

-Dez