TeenHelp
Support Forums Today's Posts Chat Room

Get Advice Connect with TeenHelp Resources
HelpLINK Facebook     Twitter     Tumblr     Instagram    Hotlines    Safety Zone    Alternatives


You are not registered or have not logged in

Hello guest! (Not a guest? Log in above!)

As a guest on TeenHelp you are only able to use some of our site's features. By registering an account you will be able to enjoy unlimited access to our site, and will be able to:

  • Connect with thousands of teenagers worldwide by actively taking part in our Support Forums and Chat Room.
  • Find others with similar interests in our Social Groups.
  • Express yourself through our Blogs, Picture Albums and User Profiles.
  • And much much more!

Signing up is free, anonymous and will only take a few moments, so click here to register now!


Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

Closed Thread
 
Thread Tools Search this Thread Rate Thread
  (#1 (permalink)) Old
Breathe~me Offline
Member
Average Joe
***
 
Breathe~me's Avatar
 
Name: Janine
Age: 24
Gender: Female
Location: lost and no where to be found ~ </3

Posts: 173
Join Date: February 28th 2012

Exclamation suicidal on the 17th :( - July 5th 2013, 11:11 AM

This thread has been labeled as triggering, particularly on the subject of suicide, by the original poster or by a Moderator. The contents of this thread therefore might not be suitable for certain sensitive users. Please take this into consideration before continuing to read.

I'm 16 years old, suffer from severe depression and self harm ( have been for over 2 years). My depression was triggered from bullying from the same people over a 2+ year period at school. My suicidal thoughts are getting more intense and frequent. I was put on medication 2 years ago, but went off it since the psychiatrist refused to take me off it and try a different one even though I had been getting severe stomach aches, head aches and feeling like vomiting for about 6 months as well as me feeling unable to cry (numb/ emotionally dead) and more suicidal. I don't take any medication and I don't plan on taking it, so please don't suggest taking it. I currently have 2 phone helpline counselors I speak to since I live in a rural area where mental health workers don't exist.I made a plan for the 17th of July since I'm sick of feeling alone and vulnerable to everyone's taunts and hate. I just can't do this anymore. I feel like I have no one I'm making a video, putting it on youtube and then I'll end it all on that day.


~ Words scar, Rumors destroy and bullies kill ~
~ I'm just another nobody.
~ You can't tell how much suffering is on a face that's always smiling </3
~ Be my friend.
hold me.
wrap me up.
unfold me.
I am small and needy.
Warm me up and breathe me.

❤❤❤
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subscribe to me on Youtube <3 http://www.youtube.com/user/xJustAnotherNobodyx1
Or follow me on DeviantArt
http://lostinfragility.deviantart.com/
  Send a message via MSN to Breathe~me  
  (#2 (permalink)) Old
Thereishope Offline
Skittles Minion & Fish Thrower
I can't get enough
*********
 
Thereishope's Avatar
 
Name: Michael
Age: 38
Gender: Male
Location: Maine, USA

Posts: 2,777
Blog Entries: 76
Join Date: November 10th 2012

Re: suicidal on the 17th :( - July 5th 2013, 01:19 PM

Hey there, I understand how life is hard but this is not the answer by any means. There are alot of people that care about you and would miss you if you did this. Continue using the helplines, talk to people here and also try looking at the Alternatives sticky located at the top of the SH forum for ideas to help keep yourself busy when those thoughts enter. Stay strong!
   
  (#3 (permalink)) Old
xxprincessxx Offline
Member
Regular TeenHelper
*****
 
xxprincessxx's Avatar
 
Name: Sammie
Age: 29
Gender: Female
Location: Ohio

Posts: 488
Join Date: March 7th 2010

Re: suicidal on the 17th :( - July 6th 2013, 02:40 AM

Hey,

I know that life is tough and what you've been through is really difficult. But don't end it because people bullied you. That's a temporary situation, you'll get out of it. You'll get stronger, I promise! Whatever has been done or said to you, believe that you are worth so MUCH more than that.

Please tell somebody that you are this suicidal, you need to get help, ASAP. Tell one of the hotlines, your parents, a trusted adult, a friend, or even call 911. Somebody can help you, and people out there care about you! I care about you!

As for you psychiatrist, maybe it's time to find a new one? If you have all of those symptoms then you obviously need some new drug, and quitting really isn't going to help either. I know that I see my primary care doctor for my anti-depressens/anti-anxiety meds, and if I don't feel well, or do good on them, they work with me and help me feel better as soon as they can. So I think that it would be a really good idea to either bring up the idea again, or find somebody else to see.

Please hang in there. If you ever want to talk, feel free to talk to me! I'm here for you! <3


all i want is a place to call my own and
mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone,
woah,
you know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low.

<3
   
  (#4 (permalink)) Old
Chaotic mind...
Experienced TeenHelper
******
 
Forging Galaxies's Avatar
 
Name: Pathetic person
Age: 24
Gender: Male
Location: Hell

Posts: 645
Join Date: April 15th 2013

Re: suicidal on the 17th :( - July 7th 2013, 12:22 AM

Do not go! Whatever you do, please... I'm begging you to live for life. I know it's one of those things you don't want to hear because you think it won't happen but... you keep finding something to fight for, and... well the more you endure, the more wise you get.
I really hate the situation you've been put in, it's terrible but even despite the bullying for someone I imagined beautiful in her heart and true to it... but don't let them get to you. Don't let them win! Be the one in control, discover your true potential in yourself and live for that.
Look, I've been in your situation for that sorta time period and I know what's it's like. People that just grip the life in you that's worth it an pull it out of you and twist it around. This isn't who you are, you are special because you are pure and good. I 'believe' in you, you are pure and human. Simple as that...

I can't do much on this end but if you want to... well we could talk further into this cos talking about your feelings to at least one person does give the pain out in my experience and trust me, where you are... I've been there and it's always a help to you to talk to someone who may experienced something similar to yours...
   
  (#5 (permalink)) Old
RosieBooNeuhoff Offline
Member
Welcome me, I'm new!
*
 
RosieBooNeuhoff's Avatar
 
Name: Rosie Neuhoff
Age: 24
Gender: Female
Location: Many, LA U.S.A.

Posts: 9
Blog Entries: 5
Join Date: July 6th 2013

Re: suicidal on the 17th :( - July 7th 2013, 12:26 AM

listen to this song, it might help a lil.

"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time


*Rosebud*
   
  (#6 (permalink)) Old
Member
I've been here a while
********
 
minniemouseprincess's Avatar
 
Name: Julia
Age: 26
Gender: Female
Location: Disney World=)

Posts: 1,015
Join Date: December 17th 2010

Re: suicidal on the 17th :( - July 8th 2013, 01:07 AM

Please don’t!=( I know everything seems dark and like nothing will ever change, but it will! You gotta keep holding on because like Sammi said, bullying is a temporary situation, suicide is forever. There are no second chances if you die. There are people that care. Everyday of your life, there is someone that loves you, even if you don’t know it. Keep talking to the hotlines and anyone here will def. be here for you, including myself.


   
Closed Thread

Bookmarks

Tags
17th, cutting, depressed, stay strong, suicidal

Thread Tools Search this Thread
Search this Thread:

Advanced Search
Rate This Thread
Rate This Thread:

Posting Rules
You may post new threads
You may post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are Off
Pingbacks are Off
Refbacks are Off




All material copyright 1998-2021, TeenHelp.
Terms | Legal | Privacy | Conduct | Complaints | Mobile

Powered by vBulletin®.
Copyright ©2000-2021, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search engine optimization by vBSEO.
Theme developed in association with vBStyles.