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Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

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thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 09:19 PM

yeh, thats the truth, far to much.
i just long for it to be over, i want to die.
i need to die
everything is too much


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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 09:28 PM

how can i protect you, what can I do?


You are beautiful just the way you are.
Looking like a fallen star.
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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 09:51 PM

yeh, thats the truth, far to much.
i just long for it to be over, i want to die.
i need to die
everything is too much

You dont need to die, nobody needs to die, you need to realise that wanting to die & needing to die are two different statements which mean the same thing...'someone help me'
Everything is too much, thats why you are struggling, if life wasnt too much we would all be round singing love songs together in the sunset.
You can get better. You just have to trust yourself & tell yourself that for every negative, there is a positive.

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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 10:09 PM

i want to die, and i need to die, means.
i want and need to die.
simple.
someone help me? is impossible u dont realize how alone i am.
'love songs in sunset' nonsence, i dont have anybody and people makin comments like that make me feel like u all think im lying.
iv never ever been postive.
there arent any.
i cant find the postive in anything, theres to many negatives.
sorry, but like i said.
i need and want to die, its it.
i give up.


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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 10:13 PM

Im only trying my best to help you.

Im sorry if I come across differently.

I dont think you are lyeing, I just think you need help.

If being honest, I think you should get to a hospital, but I didnt want you to bite my head off.

I just want you to be safe & realise theres more to life than death.


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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 10:14 PM

Lea,

Abuse is difficult for everyone. It can affect you years after the events have subsided. It's a traumatic thing, our minds tend to block it out and bring back memories slowly while we recover. You are a very strong individual for putting up with a situation so terrible. It's true, the situation is bad, but it isn't impossible to fix in anyway. We have to believe there is an alternative escape, if we don't, we begin to lose faith in life. Not only in life, but ourselves and others too. Believing something good will happen is half the effort needed to actually get better. You need to believe it before anything will ever work right.

You never need to die. You need to survive. You can survive this and live a long happy life afterwards. Don't let your abuser take that away from you. Don't let him win your will to live. You can do this and I believe that. Try and repeat that and believe it too. Keep pushing through the doubts being planted in your mind. I'm not saying that doubts will subside if you begin to think positive. The doubts in such a situation as yours are very normal. Especially when it's someone you trusted. It's hard to believe anything will get better when someone who is supposed to care does something so cruel. Sometimes, we simply can't sit by and allow things to happen. Maybe it's time to take action. Action meaning; reporting him, telling a family member or friend etc...

Is the abuse still occurring? If yes, I suggest trying to fight back with the law on your side. You don't need to take any kind of abuse from anyone. This person is obviously sick and they need to be punished for what they're putting you through. It isn't right, and I think you know that too. I think you know that things could changed if you confronted the problem. There are so many more options other than suicide. Don't skip those without trying them. You can always move in with other family or friend? People care about you, and having someone you love come to you for help is a nice feeling. Whether it's you need advice or them, it strengthens the trust bond for everyone. It's okay to rely on other people to carry you sometimes. We know you can't always carry all that weight alone. Don't be afraid to ask for help. You might be surprised by the reaction you receive.

On the other hand, if the abuse occurred in the past, I suggest opening up about the incident to others who can understand. If you have any friends that know what it's like to be abused, maybe you can open up to them in a comfortable manner? If not, go to someone you do feel comfortable around. If you don't feel comfortable, nothing will be fixed. Even if you don't trust anyone, I urge you to vent your emotions and experiences in a journal then. Do something to get your feelings out in the open and allowing your chest to breathe a little easier. If you can, maybe seek some professional help. They can teach you positive coping methods that can stray you away from suicide. Because suicide is not a coping method. It's an easy way out of a tough situation. It's giving up.

You have so much potential and I would hate for you to throw that all away due to suicide. Give yourself a chance to heal or cope. GI know it's tiresome, but no one ever said anything in life like this was easy. But, if you can cope and put up with this a little longer, you'll be rewarded in the end. You'll see for yourself that life is worth the pain sometimes. Please take care of yourself. If you need anything, don't be shy to PM me.

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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 20th 2009, 10:18 PM

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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 21st 2009, 11:01 PM

i havent got any friends.
non at all.
im so lonely.
i want to forget everything.


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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 23rd 2009, 02:22 PM

Life has so much time left, you can make friends and find people that love you. People on TH already do. Losing someone to suicide is horrible. It leaves questions opened and blame weighs heavy on your friends shoulders. Rely on people that care to help you. It's okay to take a break from being strong and let someone else carry you for a bit.


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Re: thinkin about 'it' to much... - May 23rd 2009, 03:22 PM

i havent got any friend that would miss me.
y does no1 believe this.
im so desperate for everything to end.
everything so far has been to much, its worn me down.
and yes, now i give the fuck up.
i wanted to come online last night.
but i couldnt, my internet wasnt working, watever.
i cut. i cut myself so bad, and so deep.
and all i want to feel is this pain, the pain t o realzie that i can still feel somthing.
that im not completely dead on the inside.
but this pain on the outside is nothing compared to wats inside.
there is no1 who gives two shits about me.
no1.
not even myself.
i want something terriable to happen.
im not strong, i never have been.
i havent got wat t takes to keep goin anymore.
i dont want to,
i want to die./
i want to feel nothing at all.
just to fade away.
im a nothing, a no1.
it will end.
i just need to figure out the best way.
then i'll b gone, not that anyone will notice
its not a cry for help.
even if i cried for help, it wouldnt get me anywhere.
theres no1, absoloutly no1


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