Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 19th 2009, 12:26 PM
Faith, it's too late for me not to be hurt if you leave. I really care about you. I can't help that, but if I could go back and change my mind, not become friends with you, I wouldn't for a million dollars. You are so important to me now, and there is nothing anyone can do to change that.
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January 19th 2009, 12:30 PM
We don't have to be hurt...you don't have to leave!!!you are important to me and cody...and everyone else who posted on here!!!nothing will change that!!! never...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 19th 2009, 12:40 PM
My life changes that. I keep being hurt by people, I want to go and escape that, I don't care how I go I just want to so badly. I don't care about life!!! I'm a forgotten fuck up, you'll see that in time to come, my label won't change.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 19th 2009, 12:42 PM
You aren't forgotten. We remember you and always will. And you aren't a fuck-up. Everyone makes mistakes, but all mistakes can e fixed. Unless you kill yourself, that is one mistake that can never be made right again.
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January 19th 2009, 12:43 PM
You aren't a fuck up...you really aren't...I know that you want to leave...and I know how hard it can be to stay but everything will get better...It will...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 01:47 AM
No, that's the thing that's going to CORRECT everything that I've fucked up. You can't promise that things'll get better. It's just getting worse, I tried to go last night but it failed as you can see.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 20th 2009, 02:11 AM
you arent the negative thing you perceive yourself to be, faith.
i believe that faith rocks.. and i think that faith isnt a fuck up..
we're here to support you, faith.
Those who have went through more pain than everyone else, and want to protect anyone and everyone they know and care for from that pain, are stronger than everyone. 
we come, we help, we stick and never leave. pm me anytimeee!
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January 20th 2009, 07:06 AM
You can't support me. I'm just fucked up, I'm okay with that. Just makes people want me to leave more and it tempts me more and more.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 10:38 AM
Faith, what makes you think people want to leave you? I wouldn't leave you for anything. You're my friend, I care about you. I realize that you have flaws, but I know that there is so much good about you that I can just look past those to the amazing Faith underneath.
Can you just try to see yourself as we see you? You already want to go, what harm will it do you to try it our way, atleast for a little while? Maybe you'll find you like it better.
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January 20th 2009, 10:54 AM
If I'm so amazing why do people leaving me? People say they won't then tadar next thing you know they're gone. Doesn't matter what you promise, they'll always be broken. The way you see me is as someone to use or waiting to be used, that's it, it's all I'm good for.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 11:05 AM
So you think the only reason I'm here is to use you? Well, that isn't true! I see you as my amazing friend. As someone who has been there for so many people on this site. You are fun to talk to, supportive, caring, kind... amazing really is the best way I can describe you. I don't know why you refuse to believe that I care or that you're amazing, but you are!
Besides, what would I be using you for. If I didn't care about you, why would I spend all of the time I do trying to help you? What's in it for me? Only reason I can see is because I love you and I want you to be happy.
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January 20th 2009, 11:12 AM
I KNOW its the only reason I'm here, that's why I'm escaping as quickly as I can. Might be tonight if all goes to plan. I don't know what you could use me for...there's many, but I don't want to wait around and see what you'd do. Maybe you don't care...maybe it's just fun to drag me alone.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 11:25 AM
Faith, I'm not going to lie, it really is quite hurtful that you think I'm here solely to play with you or use you. I' M NOT! I really care about you. I don't know if you really believe this, or you just want to push me away so you won't have any attachments, but whatever your reasons, I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to be here for you Faith.
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I feel the exact same way as you do and I know it seems like a good plan but it isn't on the long run. You're going to regret it when you have no one around you. A lot of the time, yes, people will hurt you but there are quite a few people in the world (especially on TH  ) that won't hurt you. You just have to take a chance sometimes y'know?
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You wrote this a few minutes ago, do you not believe it? I know how easy it is to give out advice, but not be able to apply it to yourself, but if you truly believe this would work for that other person, why not you?
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January 20th 2009, 11:29 AM
You won't be so stop saying it! You will walk away when you've got what you want from me. Yes, I said that but I don't know people's pasts. Maybe the person will take to it...maybe they won't. Maybe they'll have a luckier break than me, they could want relationships with people. I'm done with life.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 20th 2009, 11:38 AM
No, I'm not going to walk away. I want for you to trust me, to be my friend, to get better, to be happy. If I walk away, how will that let any of those things happen?
I care and I'm not walking away
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January 20th 2009, 11:41 AM
There is nothing you can say to change my train of thought. I know everyone will hurt and use me so I'm leaving hopefully tonight so it doesn't happen anymore.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 12:02 PM
Faith, I am not going to use you!!!Cody sure as hell isn't!!! and no one else on here will!!! You don't have to do it!!! Please just stay!!! PM me...I left school so I should be on all day...I want to help you!!! I care!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 12:05 PM
Faith, please don't go. You must still have doubts, otherwise, why would you still be here even listening to me? Just trust me Faith, please. What harm will it do to just try? You can kill yourself anytime, you'll never have the chance to come back and try trusting again, to try being happy. Why give up those chances without giving them one more shot?
I know you won't believe this any more than the others, but I'm here for you and I will always care about you.
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January 20th 2009, 12:36 PM
How can you say you won't use me or hurt me?! I don't understand where you get that idea from. People hurt each other all the time, I know that. Maybe there's some people in the world that won't hurt each other but I know it's not for me. Plus there's many other reasons that I won't go into as to why I don't want to stay here, it's not just pain. There's loads more.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 12:43 PM
There are alot of people in this world that hurt each other. I try my absolute hardest not to be one of them. I guess I can't promise I'll never hurt you, but I can promise it will never be intentional and that if I do, I'll do every single thing in my power to make it right again.
Will you talk to me about your other reasons?
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January 20th 2009, 12:44 PM
Try to trust me!!! Once you leave you can't come back...Once it is over, it is really over!!! Just try to trust us!!! I am here!!! I will be here, I will help you if you let me...look at yourself in the right view...I know how hard it can be to try and see yourself through the right lens...but once you do, you will see that you are a really good person...and things get better...it doesn't seem that way, I know...I have been where you are...I have known that the pain is only a little bit of why you want to leave...Just try to stay...let someone save you...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 01:07 PM
I know that once I leave I won't return, that's the whole point. I don't want to come back and I can't be saved. The one person that could save me is gone so I'll be gone in my own way now aswell. Nothing matters anymore, I'm not needed to stay here and I don't want to. I can't be hurt anymore and I can't discuss the other reasons.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 01:21 PM
You are needed!!! You can be saved!!! I know the feeling!!! You just have to let someone save you...you need to trust them to no matter how hard it is!!! If you don't see any point anymore, why can't you give it a chance and just trust someone...the hurt will get better...I don't know what else is going on but in time, things get better!!! They truely do...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 01:25 PM
Why am I needed?! Everyone'll live past so I'm not needed, I'm worthless!
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 01:29 PM
We may live on after you're gone, or we may not. But if we do, it will be with immense pain. I really care about you, and your death would kill a part of me. Just please, please, please don't do it.
Can't you just try our way? Seriously, what's the harm in trying it out for a little bit. Maybe it won't work, but maybe it will. If you want to die anyway, what do you have to lose?
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January 20th 2009, 01:34 PM
I can't take anymore on. I just want to go, I only have to wait a few more hours so there's no point.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 01:42 PM
No...you have a whole life!!! What if I don't live after you die??? What if Cody doesn't??? It will hurt so much if you are gone...I don't know if I can hadle it...why not just try to make everything better??? What do you have to lose???
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 01:43 PM
Faith, can't you just wait a few days and do everything in your power to let me help you? If it doesn't work, suicide will still be there, you can kill yourself anytime. But once you are dead, there will be no going back to see if maybe you could have been helped, maybe you could have been happy.
And who knows what suicide will bring? Depending on your views, it may bring pain so much worse than this, or maybe just eternal nothingness. Maybe you will just cease to exist. Do you really want that?
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January 20th 2009, 01:44 PM
There isn't any 'what if's you'll both live! It's me that can't handle anything that gets thrown at me.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 01:51 PM
I ususlly can't either faith!!! I have been through a lot of things that made me want to give up..but I found someone who needed my help on here and that is why I am here...beccause I saw a cry out for help that needed help...I may have not helped you at all, but that is why I am here, because seeing you hurt made me want to help you!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 01:54 PM
You have helped me quite a bit actually but I'm just one who can't be saved. You have to accept that.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 01:56 PM
I will never accept that. Faith, I know you can be saved, just let us save you, ok?
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January 20th 2009, 01:59 PM
I thought I couldn't be saved either...but I finally let myself be saved...I KNOW YOU CAN BE TOO!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 20th 2009, 02:09 PM
I don't want to be saved, I want to be let go! I don't want to stay anymore.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 02:12 PM
Well, I am not going to let you go, because I want you to stay!!!
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 02:12 PM
Why don't you want to be saved? Have you ever tried it? Maybe you will like it? But if you go now, you'll never know. And wouldn't it be horrible to take that opportunity from yourself?
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Re: Hurts Too Much To Breathe -
January 20th 2009, 02:44 PM
I thought someone did save me but they just ripped everything from right under me. Now nothing's worth it.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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January 20th 2009, 02:52 PM
Well, what if you could be saved again, but this time we won't rip everything away. We really care. I care, Siera cares. We would never do anything to hurt you, please just let us in, let us help you.
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January 20th 2009, 02:56 PM
Please...I owe you that much...I will never rip away what I give...I really do care!!! I know that Cody cares too!!! Even if you don't believe me, believe Cody...I would never try to hurt you...he would never try to hurt you...and if he did I would beat him with a stick...which won't happen, but I am just saying that you can trust us!!! Let us help you...
I'm so tired of pretending everything's okay, my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away.PM or VM me if you need me, I'm here if you need someone to talk to or to just listen. I also have most messangers if you want to talk on one of those.
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January 20th 2009, 02:59 PM
Don't beat Cody with a stick! Just no, I can't trust people. I want to let go.
You were the angel of my life, taught me to be free Now I'm a stranger in your eyes.
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