Triggering (SH): ive tried so many times

[wanting_you]

Ive tried so many times to kill myself. I never go through with it. I will sit in bed at night crying with a razor in my hand and cut it across my skin so that i can see the blood. It feels so much better when i do this. but it always goes away and i cut again so i dont have to remember why im hurting. It seems like i dont have a reason to live anymore. Nothing ever works out. I just want to get away from it. Not to be here any more. It doesnt make sense any more.

[i_am_me_again]

Hi MaryRose (Beautiful name)

The fact that you have tried so many times to end your life, is an obvious reason not too. Im very glad that all your attempts ended in failure. Thats such a sign, you have something to live for. You may not know it. Cutting is dangerous, you know that. Is there anyone you could talk to....a counsellor, a teacher?

Things may not work out now, but if you put motivation & efort into positive things, then stuff will begin to work out.

Its horrible feeling suicidal, & I know it doesnt make sense. But you can pull through.

You have a talent in the way you express yourself which is very good. Maybe you should start writing things down when your angry or upset.

Anyway PM me, if you want to

& Get some help immediatly if you are feeling suicidal.

Jamie
xx

[MechanicGodCreation]

Hey there MaryRose

Personally, I think that because you've tried so many times, and it hasn't worked, that's a sign that you should keep on living!

People care about you, and nobody wants to see you go. Try talking to a counsellor or someone you trust deeply about this, they may be able to help. Professionals can help more then you can imagine, and until you've tried it you'll never know!

Try and stay strong, nothing is stopping you but yourself, I know you can do it

Good luck with this, keep your head up and if you need to talk ever, my PM box is always open.

-Dylan

[xxJesus_Freakxx <3]

Hey Mary,

I know what it feels like to want everything to just go away but killing yourself isn't going to help anything. Life is hard and sometimes it seems like it's not worth living BUT you have a purpose and you will be happy that you are alive one day. Life might be ugly sometimes but I can promise that it's also a very beautiful thing as well.

These feelings sometimes really don't make sense but don't worry, you're NOT alone. You can overcome this. I remember when all I used to think about was suicide but you know what, each day, I feel stronger. Each day, I know that I'm here for a purpose, it's hard and it's a battle but ITS WORTH IT. I can promise you that! I'm always here if you would like to talk, you can always PM me and I will listen.

Don't Give Up Hope and Hang in There.
<3