Triggering (Suicide): i bet it's nice;

[savealife723]

i bet it's nice when you die.
i want to find out.
soon.
i can't do this anymore.

[Prozac]

Hey Kayla,

Unfortunately I can't tell you whether or nice or not when you die. It may be absolutely wonderful but it may also be absolutely awful, no one knows for sure.

It would be horrible if you did find out that it was awful, wouldn't it? I'm sure you'll find out when you do die - theres's plenty of time until then though! I think it's best to at least try and enjoy what you have when you're alive first. You can experience some really nice things when you're alive and since you're going to die anyway then you may aswell try and enjoy those things as much as you can. There's a big list of things [here] if you're struggling to identify things right now Kayla, but there's far more things than what's on that list! If you like doing certain things then you could try and do something that you enjoy everyday (or try and find something new that you like to do). Try and write five things that you enjoy everyday - that's a nice positive thing to do.

I'm wondering what's making you wonder what it's like when you're dead. I can only assume you're feeling pretty down right now. If that's the case then perhaps you could try and find what's making you feel upset or depressed and try and rectify or work through things - that'd be a really useful thing to do. You may want to write things down or talk to someone, they can both help you to find out what's up and how you can go about changing things positively - change things so you can enjoy this life, because that's very possible, Kayla. Seeing as you know you can change things now to make life better, It's probably a better idea to do that.

Go for it, Kayla - embrace life!

[Anomaly]

Hey Kayla,

Remember what we talked about through private messages why dont you try doing those things again. You said you really enjoyed that.

I know that you can get through this im like absoultly positive that you can. I know things are really hard for you right now but things will get better its just going to take some time I cant tell you how long its going to take but it will get better.

Talk to somebody about how your feeling. Like a pastor a family member, friend, school consuler, doctor, anybody really just talk to somebody. You deserve to be happy and healthy. You deserve to enjoy life.

Your a wonderful girl and can do wonderful things in life but you have to stick around for that. Think of who you would affect if you died. It would hurt so many people. People love and care about you and there never going to stop.

You know how I told you my life was completly changed and turned around the same exact thing can happen to you. You can get through this and enjoy life again you've just got to let yourself and you've got to let people help you and be willing to change.

I used to feel the same way that you do and if I can make it through that and be happy now so can you.

Pm me anytime.

[ladyninetyfour]

Hey

I have felt the same way.

I still feel the same way.

But the thing is, we're both still here. And we both need to hang on to the things that mean the most to us. And we need to get through this. Because the thing is, we CAN get through this, no matter what you might think right now.

PM me anytime. Take care.
xoxox Bex xoxox

[xander]

hey Kayla

i dont no because i havent died, but if death is nice, why findout now? everybody dies eventualy, so no matter wat u allways findout, but with life, thats somthing that u had to fight for, and theres alot to take in, so dont waste it, just drift thru it lol
pm me anytime

[savealife723]

i just don't know anymore.
everything seems to be going wrong, and no matter how hard i try;
it never changes.

[floataway]

Kayla,
I understand how you feel. But what if you are wrong? I have thought your thoughts before, but the fear that Death isn't better than life kept me from my suicide.

I notice your screen name is save a life, but how can you save someone else's life if you throw your own away?

[CherriesBlossom]

hey there alex

notice your screen name is save a life, but how can you save someone else's life if you throw your own away

that was kind of insensitive and hurtfull, you prolly werent trying to be but watch what you say please.

i think that you are a wonderful human being with so many amazing qualitys and who has an amazing amount of people who care about her. you have a lot to live for even if life is falling apart right now...maybe things have to all apart in order to fall together and make something beautiful

good luck !

[savealife723]

thank you Katie, and xander. it means a lot.

[mikaela17]

there is so much in life for you still.
you just need to start making the right choices.
there are so many people in your life who need you. they love you Kayla.
im saying this as someone who has known you for a while now.
dont talk like that babe. it scares me.

[savealife723]

mikaela;
i do need to start making the right decisions.
and i promise i will work on that for you.
you've seen me at my lowest moments.
and you've seen me at some of my highest.
we've been through a lot together,
and i'm glad that we are still so close after I changed schools.
i will get better. i promise.