"You'll never amount to anything"

[Elevator]

What my dad said to me tonight, sure hes drunk but being drunk doesn't make you say irrational things, just makes you say/do things you've always wanted to but couldn't.

I'm the biggest loser ever.

Junior in highschool, a virgin, a softy, a bitch, I try too damn hard.

I'm just sick and tired of it all and currently im in tears right now, I can't hold it back.

I hate who I am, it fucking sucks it really does.

I wish I was that kid, the one that gets everyone to talk to him, has all the girls talking to him, gets invited to parties.

Don't say things like "join clubs meet new people" it doesn't work, not for me atleast.

I used to be that kid, in elementary school, I don't know what happened.

Highschool - worst 4 years of my life (If I even make it to senior year before killing myself)

As I said before, I hate myself.

I just needed to vent, sorry for pulling you guys into this

[andie09]

I think everyone needs to vent every once in a while. I know pretty much how you feel. I graduated and I felt as though a lot of my high school time sucked balls. My Mom is drunk pretty much all the time. My dad is just quiet. My sister is the boss(although she is younger). Believe me, I know how you feel. If you feel the need to talk about anything pm me and stuff.

[*Jen*]

Hey,

Never be sorry for posting. It is good to get it all out and I am glad you posted this because it sounds like you could do with some extra support right now. You know it is ok to cry; at least you are letting it out rather than holding it inside, which doesn't help anyone.

It seems like you are rather hard on yourself. You might not be someone who is popular at school but that doesn't mean you should hate yourself. Do you have any good friends? If you do then why worry about everyone else liking you.

I think it was rather horrible and insensitive for your dad to say that to you. He was drunk though and just because he was drunk it doesn't mean he is being serious. Often when you are drunk you say things you don't mean and would never say if you were soba. I have often said things when I have had a few drinks, which I didn't mean and then regret later. Perhaps you need to talk to him when he is soba and ask him about what he said.

I am here if you ever want to talk. Stay strong.