TeenHelp
Support Forums Today's Posts

Get Advice Connect with TeenHelp Resources
HelpLINK Facebook     Twitter     Tumblr     Instagram    Hotlines    Safety Zone    Alternatives    The Holiday Resource


You are not registered or have not logged in

Hello guest! (Not a guest? Log in above!)

As a guest on TeenHelp you are only able to use some of our site's features. By registering an account you will be able to enjoy unlimited access to our site, and will be able to:

  • Connect with thousands of teenagers worldwide by actively taking part in our Support Forums and Chat Room.
  • Find others with similar interests in our Social Groups.
  • Express yourself through our Blogs, Picture Albums and User Profiles.
  • And much much more!

Signing up is free, anonymous and will only take a few moments, so click here to register now!


Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

Closed Thread
 
Thread Tools Search this Thread
  (#1 (permalink)) Old
Hey Nikki! Offline
Member
Junior TeenHelper
****
 
Hey Nikki!'s Avatar
 

Posts: 293
Join Date: June 11th 2009

All Soul's Day - October 29th 2009, 12:08 AM

This thread has been labeled as triggering, particularly on the subject of suicide, by the original poster or by a Moderator. The contents of this thread therefore might not be suitable for certain sensitive users. Please take this into consideration before continuing to read.

I'm seriously sorry for making all these threads.

And I know that nothing you can say will help me.

And my parents will never find the courage to save me.

And I have no friends that will listen to me.

I have NOTHING. Over the summer, I had friends, happiness, and I could laugh and smile like I used to- then I lost it all within a day. School started. I was pushed around again and humiliated by my classmates. My friends all had their own lives and friends to tend to- and I never see them anymore. I've turned distrustful of everyone once again, just like last year. When summer left, it took my true self- and my smiles- away with it.

And you know what the worst feeling in the world is? Knowing that you can't do a thing about it. I'm so sad and lonely, but my parents either don't notice or just don't care, and I'm terrified of telling them. I've told them so many times before, but they just get angry. They ask me why I can't fit in with everyone else, and I honestly can't answer them.

All I can do is wait it out for 8 more months- then, after next summer, another 8 months. I'm tired of this cycle of depression. I don't want to die, but I'm terrified of living. I exist, but I don't live my life. I was so confident over the summer because I was away from my classmates. Then, when school came around again, it was back to being bullied, lonely, friendless, and depressed again. There's NOTHING I can do about this, either. I HAVE to go through this every day of my life- crying, feeling suicidal, wondering why I'm not...'human' like the rest of my classmates.

Why I'm not more mature, why I'm always the loner, why I'm always failing my grades...why I have no motivation to continue in this life. Why MY life is ending, while theirs is just starting.

Even if I go to a therapist, all they can do is talk. They can't actually make a change in my life- all they can do is try and make me feel better, and fail at that. No one can make me feel better. And I'm TIRED of waiting.

...So, anyone ever heard of All Soul's Day? It's when we remember all the good people who have died...that's gonna be my day...
   
  (#2 (permalink)) Old
nobody123 Offline
Member
Welcome me, I'm new!
*
 
nobody123's Avatar
 
Gender: Other

Posts: 43
Join Date: September 27th 2009

Re: All Soul's Day - October 29th 2009, 12:48 AM

please don't give up. I feel your pain... you are not alone. don't feel bad for making these threads. it's good that you are reaching out.

and you would be surprised about going to a therapist.. I was exactly like you before I went, I didn't think it could help. and I can't explain exactly how.. but my therapist is probably the only reason I'm alive today. it's not just making you feel better..it really really helps.. even if I am still depressed.. my therapist is the only person I trust and it really makes me feel better to talk to her. maybe it can help you too. I'm sorry I can't explain.. I can try to explain more about me if you PM me. please hold on
   
  (#3 (permalink)) Old
Wannabe Writer Offline
Closet Sci-fi geek.
Welcome me, I'm new!
*
 
Wannabe Writer's Avatar
 
Name: Bailey
Gender: Do I need one? T.T
Location: Wonderland.

Posts: 48
Join Date: September 19th 2009

Re: All Soul's Day - October 29th 2009, 06:29 AM

Hi, it's good that you're making these threads and reaching out. Please don't give up. I know what it's like to feel alone, or to suddenly be alone, but you have to hold on. Maybe try joining some groups if you can, they're good places to meet new people and make some friends. And maybe try going to a therapist, just talking about your problems and getting them all out can be very helpful. I hope my advice can help you. Please, just hold on.
   
Closed Thread

Bookmarks

Tags
day, soul

Thread Tools Search this Thread
Search this Thread:

Advanced Search

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are Off
Pingbacks are Off
Refbacks are Off




All material copyright 1998-2019, TeenHelp.
Terms | Legal | Privacy | Conduct | Complaints

Powered by vBulletin®.
Copyright ©2000-2019, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search engine optimization by vBSEO.
Theme developed in association with vBStyles.