i feel like...

[DreamsUnderstood]

i basically feel like i'm stuck in a life i can't be happy in. my friends think i'm lying about my feelings, my parents aren't helping me (they've only sent me to a doctor), and i just feel like i want to give up.... i think about suicide all the time, and i still wonder how i'm still alive, even when i've started giving up. i also think about leaving home all the time... i can't stay here anymore...
i don't know what i want to do anymore... the only thing i know i want to do is play and/or sing music... help?

[Palmolive]

Hey there.
Im sorry to hear you're feeling this way. Its a horrible place for anyone to be in life feeling this way.

May i ask you why you're friends think you are lying about the way you feel? I dont know why they would think this. Have you spoken to them about it and how them saying this is making you feel? If not maybe you should talk to them and explain what is going on and how they are making you feel. How 'ever, if they carry on this way, maybe you need to question if they are friends. Should friends treat you this way? Sometimes we have to leave people behind. Your friends should be people who beleive you, especially when it comes to situatuions like these.

Your parents tried to help you by getting you to see a doctor. I know it may feel like they arn't helping, but if they did not care, they wouldn't have involved a doctor. Sometimes when a parent's child is going through what you are going through, they find it hard to understand and sometimes dont really want to believe that their child is hurting so much, but inside they're dying to see you happy again. Maybe you can talk to them about this too? Dont feel like they dont care because im sure they do, they just find it hard to show it.

Did seeing your doctor help? If not maybe you need to see him/her again. Its not far on you to feel this way inyourself and about life. You can't live everyday thinking of suicide, it doesn't work. And yes fighting it is going to be hard and one hell of a ride, but that does not meant that you can not beat it. You can get through this. Try talking to people and try and reach out for help. Im sure they're are plenty of people who would love to help and support you thought this.

Im always here if you need anthing. Take care of yourself
Jess x