Depressed, scared and done!

[I ♥ Jehovah Shalom!]

I'm tried dealing with being depressed and I'm personally done feeling like I'm alone and left for dead by everyone! I'm sick of being this way, I just wanna die but I don't wanna hurt anyone I care about. If I die, it wouldn't matter cuz no one cares.. Theres only 2 things stopping me, the sin and me caring.

Everyone else I know would be happier, I mean I'm just me. No one around me sees the tell tale signs of suicide, I'm trying to get better but its not working. No positive enforcement for me. Its like no one would give a ____(fill in that blank) if I was to ever do it... I've gone back to hurting and I can't stand it, it there was a way to stop my hurting someone tell me.. If not, who knows what will happen to me!

I HATE FEELING ALONE!!!!!

[newbie552]

Ok hold on for a second before doing anything serious. I often feel the exact same way excpet for me, knowing no one would give a _ is on of the reasons why I didn't commit suicide, I wanted to prove everyone wrong.

i also know what you mean about feeling alone, I often feel that to. I grew up as a loner and was known as the school freak and the only reason people ever talked to me was to make fun of me, so believe me when I say that I know how it feels.

If you need a friend or someone to talk to, don't hesitate to pm me

[MadPoet]

Suniesha -

First of all, you may feel a lot of ways, but you shouldn't feel alone. I know that it's often really hard to believe that there are people that you can talk to, but there always are. I'm sure that if you think it through, there are a lot of people who would willingly listen to your problems right now...or simply what you have to say. And I know that a lot of people, including myself, would really feel terrible if you were to kill yourself. I would give a flying ____ if you were to end your life, I really would. And I know that you are strong enough to get through this, and it really would be a shame if you were to give up on yourself.

The best way that I can put this is that you might be walking down a really scary and lonely path right now, but you're not walking down it alone. There's a lot of people standing next to you who will gladly take your hand when you feel the way you do right now, you might just not see them, but that does not mean that they're not there. People care, and people want you here, including a lot of people on this website. I know that you are a strong person, and I believe that you can get through this and one day look back and be glad you decided to continue to get up off the ground and keep on fighting.

You can do this, I know that you can. I'll be here whenever, if you need someone to talk to about anything.

[I ♥ Jehovah Shalom!]

I don't get it.. I can barely describe how I feel.. But right now all I feel like doing is _ _ _ _ ing killing myself but I don't get why I can't take this.. The thoughts and urges are making my head burst out of my flipping skull!!!

I hate it, I can't take it. I wanna die, and I wanna die right now!!!

[MadPoet]

Hun, please don't do anything to hurt yourself. I know I'm just a random person on the Internet but I want you here, and alive. Please, suicide is not an option, your way to strong. Things will get better, you'll make it out of this. Just hold on a little longer Hun.

[I ♥ Jehovah Shalom!]

Its hard to hold on to a life where your a punching bag, and can't seem to do anything right.

[I ♥ Jehovah Shalom!]

Why can I do? I can't tell anyone in detail why I feel like crap.. It won't come out. And I'm sure no one wants to hear me again.