Triggering: substance abuse / beginning to cut

[e44314]

everything has gone downhill since the beginning of this year. i lost anyone that cared about me except my parents and now all i want to do is get high off of whatever i can get my hands on. i realized this is bad so i tried to stop and now i just constantly feel completely alone. my parents r distant my brother is gone and any friend i had that could help me, i've pushed away too far. i just cut myself and i really want to die, but the only thing that's stopping me is knowing how my parents would feel. i want to be able to not feel like this, but its been the same for months now and i dont kno what to do.

[Emily.]

Hey there.

First off, I am going to move this thread as I think you will get more help in another forum.

Secondly, it sounds like you have been going through a really rough time lately. I think the best thing you can do for yourself is to talk to someone. Tell your parents what's going on and maybe ask them if you can see a counselor? It can be really helpful to have a professional to work through things with. Plus you deserve that help.

I'm really glad you realized getting high wasn't helping you and are trying to stop. That's a really good step. You also don't deserve the hurt from self-harming either. I know it feels like it helps, but in the long run you are really just hurting yourself more. And you definitely do not deserve to die. I truly believe suicide is never the right choice. Life can get better. It might take some time and letting others help you, but things can change. You can be happy. Just don't give up, okay?

Please don't be afraid to reach out and talk to someone. You deserve that. And you can pm me anytime.
<3 Emily

[WillO'Wisp]

Drugs will not make you feel better. It may seem they will numb the pain for awhile but as an ending results it'll only bring so much more pain and problems into your life and you don't need that. As for cutting, that is only hurting yourself, and it won't help you to feel any better. I tried that already before and it never once helped me, that's why I stopped.
Perhaps try not pushing your friends away, instead maybe try talking to your parents and getting closer to them, open up to someone who you can trust and confide in, but don't push people away. Don't be afraid to open up and trust someone and let someone in a little, because if you open yourself up to a person and confide in them, they can really help and make you feel better. I didn't believe it could work either, but then I tried it and it really helped me. I talk to my mom about everything now and she's really helped me through alot, as have a few close friends.

[jellbell]

being lost is apart of getting help rite now yur lost everyonr here will try to help to the best of our ablityy