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Unhappy Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 19th 2010, 06:13 AM

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Most 13 and 14 year olds would be asleep by now, or at least sneaking around having fun. But not me. Iím awake, and dancing with the devil in my head.
I know staying up all night gain wonít make the bags under my eyes any better than dreaming. Trying is pointless anyway, it will always end the same.
My dreams are never actual dreams, only inescapable nightmares. Just another form of torture God decided that I deserved. The big problem with the dreams, is that they are actually my worst memories made even more gory and traumatizing by my overactive imgination. These dreams are the elite of frightening so sickening that I canít even face the idea of them, let alone tell my therapist.
Iíve started to really miss those nights when I didnít dream at all. When I slept in blackness. When I couldnít even tell that I was asleep because all I felt was peace and all I saw was a soothing darkness.*
But that hasnít happened since my love(a person and the emotion) died. Now, everytime I drift off into sleep, that mental hotter film starts up again and doesnít stop until Iím drenched in sweat and biting back tears.
But thatís the least of my problems. I still have the rest of the day to deal with. * * *
Here is one of my dreams.
imagine a young girls body in a tub filled with blood and water and the smell of alcohol and gun smoke in the air. imagine a hole in her chest where her heart should have been and words cut into her skin. words like:*ALONE. FAKE.MISUNDERSTOOD.HATED.FORGOTTEN.ENTITY.EVERLOST . and many more. you see her long dark brown hair float along the glassy water. Her dark, almost black eyes staring back at you. asking, ďwhy? Why did you kill me?Ē you know it was your fault. you knew that you venomous words and cold eyes would break her. But you didnít know that it would kill her. You didnít want to.*You didnít know that she was already broken, and you pushed her over the precipice, back into her own personal hell hole. You look at the body of the young girl and for once, you feel sorry. She was just a young girl.*

This is the most realistic dream iíve ever had. But it wasnt real.and the murderer isnt just*one person. Its everyone.
   
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 20th 2010, 05:20 AM

Please help. I want these dreams to stop. I can't sleep. And barely have. I want this to be all over. Each dream is different. And comes with a unique pain that linger even after I wake up. This hurts. Last night I was shot in the back 14 times. I felt each bullet and when I tried to move when I awoke. I started to shake and spasm. It hurt so much.
   
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 20th 2010, 09:02 PM

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Please help. I want these dreams to stop. I can't sleep. And barely have. I want this to be all over. Each dream is different. And comes with a unique pain that linger even after I wake up. This hurts. Last night I was shot in the back 14 times. I felt each bullet and when I tried to move when I awoke. I started to shake and spasm. It hurt so much.



one trick thats some psycologist recomend is to write down on a peice of paper what you want to dream about....rite before you got to bead repeat it for 2-5 mins....put it in your dresser and it should work....another method is when you have theses thoughts in your sleep distract your thoughts with better thoughts....takes time to do


If we ass humans spend more time trying to forgive than being angry the world would have no wars or conflict and there would be peace.....being angry does not change the problem...........
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 21st 2010, 12:16 AM

I hope it works. I've tried so much but nothing really works. It's gotten to the point where Ive passed out in class and at home. Usually I manage to hide it or hold on until I get somwhere private. But sometimes I don't.
   
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 21st 2010, 12:25 AM

Try going to bed with your tv on, or soothing music. I have an album that reminds me of a cirtian person, and this person reminds me of peace, so that's great to sleep to.

It sounds like you have a lot of issues to deal with, and if your demons can't get out any other way, they'll sneak up on you in your dreams.
all I can say is keep fighting

also, http://www.dreammoods.com/



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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 21st 2010, 02:57 AM

I mist have a lot of demons because i do a lot of "things" for them to get out through. I don't get it. I wish I could forget my dreams like everyone else.
   
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 22nd 2010, 03:45 AM

I never forget my dreams. What do you feel so guilty about hun? I just wanna know whats wrong so I can help


When it comes down to it...You just gotta know who you are...and be ok with that.
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Re: Murderers, suicide, and dreams - June 22nd 2010, 06:32 PM

It's not that I feel guilty even though I do. In my dream it was like u was relly hoping the person standing there looking at my body would feel guilty. That the murderer(s) would feel guilty.
   
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