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Mother doesn't like me. - July 31st 2010, 01:15 AM

I love my mother. A lot. I told her that I felt like self-harming because I did, and all she did was critsize saying I wasn't giving her anything to go on and that she didn't know what to do. This sounds like good parental concern, but all she does is critisize. I don't think she knows how to comunicate any other way, unless she's talking to a stranger or some man she wants to impress. I have no self-esteem and I have inherited this comunication style. I seriously don't know how to give complements without them sounding (at least to me) forced and stupid and like I'm useless and should die because the womyn I'm talking to is waaay better than I am.

My mom doesn't feel anything. She doesn't like hugs, she gets really awkward when she says "I love you". She makes jokes about killing me and me dying a lot. I know they are supposed to be in jest, and that she does, on some level, love me. But I'm not stupid. I know that her life would have been better if I was never born. She was probably forced into a pregnancy by my father, and while I haven't asked for I fear the following outburst of rage, I have no reason to believe that he would respect her considering he's a prick and he abused me.

She even said of one incident after trying to get through my locked door with a knife that she would have killed me if she had gotten through.

I feel I'm going to die soon. I don't really want to at the moment, but I think I only have a few more years to live. I'm not sure that's a bad thing.


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Re: Mother doesn't like me. - July 31st 2010, 12:45 PM

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I love my mother. A lot. I told her that I felt like self-harming because I did, and all she did was critsize saying I wasn't giving her anything to go on and that she didn't know what to do. This sounds like good parental concern, but all she does is critisize. I don't think she knows how to comunicate any other way, unless she's talking to a stranger or some man she wants to impress. I have no self-esteem and I have inherited this comunication style. I seriously don't know how to give complements without them sounding (at least to me) forced and stupid and like I'm useless and should die because the womyn I'm talking to is waaay better than I am.

My mom doesn't feel anything. She doesn't like hugs, she gets really awkward when she says "I love you". She makes jokes about killing me and me dying a lot. I know they are supposed to be in jest, and that she does, on some level, love me. But I'm not stupid. I know that her life would have been better if I was never born. She was probably forced into a pregnancy by my father, and while I haven't asked for I fear the following outburst of rage, I have no reason to believe that he would respect her considering he's a prick and he abused me.

She even said of one incident after trying to get through my locked door with a knife that she would have killed me if she had gotten through.

I feel I'm going to die soon. I don't really want to at the moment, but I think I only have a few more years to live. I'm not sure that's a bad thing.
Those jokes aint funny at all. That's scary and it needs to stop. You sure you are safe with your mom.


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Re: Mother doesn't like me. - July 31st 2010, 05:02 PM

Hi there. I think maybe you could use one.

Your home really doesn't sound like a safe situation, for your physical and mental health. I'm not sure how old you are, but is moving out an option at all? I really think its something you should look into. Your mom sounds very dangerous and that cannot be easy on you. Even if she does say that occasional I love you, it doesn't mean much when she tells you she was going to kill you, or jokes about it.

Do you have any friends whos parents you can talk to? The police station? Anywhere you can turn to get yourself out of this situation? I suggest trying ever outlet you can, because it is a bad thing to assume your not oging to be around in a few years. Your young, and you have your whole like ahead of you, your mom is a hurdle - yes a large one, but a hurdle nonetheless. You just have to find your way around it.

I really do with you luck, this is a scary situation that I truly hope you can get yourself out of. Keep your head up. Keep fighting. Your life is worth living. <3


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