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At the end of my wits I can't do this anymore I can't keep fighting I give up
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I'm worthless I'm weak I'm pathetic piece of trash
I give up on life
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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 11th 2010, 03:17 AM

NO YOU ARE NOT! you are not worthless, weak, or a pathetic piece of trash! I know that no matter how hard it seems things will get better. please don't give up on life!


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Re: I'm very unsure if I can live anymore with ed and pain - September 11th 2010, 03:18 AM

Please keep fighting. i know it doesn't seem like it, but in the end it will be worth it. You ARE worth it!


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NO YOU ARE NOT! you are not worthless, weak, or a pathetic piece of trash! I know that no matter how hard it seems things will get better. please don't give up on life!
I am what I called me
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weak a @&&@@!???!'mkm

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am I?!
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Re: I'm very unsure if I can live anymore with ed and pain - September 11th 2010, 03:52 AM

Hun, things seems unbarin for you rite now. Keepa trucking bc things always come to those who wait evn tho waiting seems impossible.
   
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Hun, things seems unbarin for you rite now. Keepa trucking bc things always come to those who wait evn tho waiting seems impossible.
Hope ur right

I might maybe just just stop caring that much maybe that will lessen pain
an mYbe I should not eat at all
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Re: I'm very unsure if I can live anymore with ed and pain - September 11th 2010, 05:52 AM

Hun i was there before I know how it feel to be in so much pain and hurt and it hurts even more when the people who are clost to you dont understand but I promise sticking it out to the end is worth it
   
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Hun i was there before I know how it feel to be in so much pain and hurt and it hurts even more when the people who are clost to you dont understand but I promise sticking it out to the end is worth it
Easy for you
I'm sorry I'm truly struggling here I'm lost an not sure if I really want to even keep sticking around in life to fight my pain an my hurts an my ed an sh
nothing truly makes me relax orhappy I feel depressed alot

I hardely eat an if I do I feel terrible
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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 11th 2010, 06:46 AM

Believe me, you are NOT worthless, weak or a pathetic piece of trash. You are NOT stupid and you are NOT an idiot. You are not telling yourself the truth. Remember all the good things about yourself, and write them down in bright colours and put these up in your room.

Things can change; nothing has to stay the same. But, if we do what we have always done, things will be how they’ve always been. We have the power to do something different and make a positive change in our lives. Sometimes, the smallest, intial steps that we take can make the biggest difference in our lives. Things will get better, but you will need to make the effort and try your hardest to start these changes.

Don't give up because you CAN recover and live a fulfilling life.
   
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Believe me, you are NOT worthless, weak or a pathetic piece of trash. You are NOT stupid and you are NOT an idiot. You are not telling yourself the truth. Remember all the good things about yourself, and write them down in bright colours and put these up in your room.

Things can change; nothing has to stay the same. But, if we do what we have always done, things will be how they’ve always been. We have the power to do something different and make a positive change in our lives. Sometimes, the smallest, intial steps that we take can make the biggest difference in our lives. Things will get better, but you will need to make the effort and try your hardest to start these changes.

Don't give up because you CAN recover and live a fulfilling life.


Hope you are right it's just that I have less strentgh to keep going
I really don't have any good quilties
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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 11th 2010, 04:46 PM

I've spoken to you many times on your posts. And you should be able to tell that I have faith in you to get better. I know you have a lot of issues, and you are getting help for those issues, which is great! But you can't allow yourself to feel this way. You are a lovely person, and you are in no ways useless!

If you continue to speak to your therapist, I know that you will be able to recover and live a healthy fulfilling life. I have faith in you.



   
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I've spoken to you many times on your posts. And you should be able to tell that I have faith in you to get better. I know you have a lot of issues, and you are getting help for those issues, which is great! But you can't allow yourself to feel this way. You are a lovely person, and you are in no ways useless!

If you continue to speak to your therapist, I know that you will be able to recover and live a healthy fulfilling life. I have faith in you.
Awww thanks
that makes me feel better an maybe that I can get through this
rough spot and I can recover an live a full filling life without being hard on me
I want to so thank you for sticking through with me I apperciate alot
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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 11th 2010, 05:46 PM

Hey there,

I know you are struggling but you can pull through. I have found that sometimes we have to hit rock bottom before we can pull ourselves back up again. I know that sucks for us because everything is so much more complicated but in the end the struggles we have make us better, stronger people. I truely believe that if it were not for my struggles I would not be the person that I am today and in all reality I kind of like myself.

You may have little strength now and you may not really like yourself but that can change. You know, 3 years ago I was cutting actively, I was active in my ED, I was attempting suicide, I was really depressed and I seriously hated myself. Now, I am not actively cutting, I am not attempting suicide, I am not as depressed, I don't hate myself as much (I am still active in my ED behaviors though but working on it). The point is you can get there too, I know you can.

I had three separate doctors basically give up on me and say 'yeah your never going to get better. They told my parents to look into long term care and all other kinds of things. But here I am now stronger then ever and getting stronger. You can and will get there.

I know it is hard when we lose strength but that is when you reach out to friends, family and professionals. I know you have a treatment team (From when we have talked) and I think it would be fantastic if you reached out to them. I know how hard that can be but it helps. When you open up about your struggles you are letting others help you through and that helps lift the burden. You do not have to go through this alone.

And, you said you have no good qualities but I don't believe that. I see you posting here all the time and that leaves me to believe that you have a lot of determination. You are determined to get better. You are here asking for support and advice and that shows determination, strength and courage. Those are three fantastic qualities to posses and they will help you with this struggle.

I hope this helped and if you need ANYTHING feel free to pm me.

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Unhappy Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc help!!!!!!!! - September 11th 2010, 08:58 PM

I feel so down right now an I can't even sleep
even though exhausted

I feel dizzy now to and sh urges stronger then ever



Can anyone help
if so please contact me
Nevermind since it seems ethier people don't know how to help or don't care
I'll deal on my own then
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Ok thanks I apperciate it



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Hey there,

I know you are struggling but you can pull through. I have found that sometimes we have to hit rock bottom before we can pull ourselves back up again. I know that sucks for us because everything is so much more complicated but in the end the struggles we have make us better, stronger people. I truely believe that if it were not for my struggles I would not be the person that I am today and in all reality I kind of like myself.

You may have little strength now and you may not really like yourself but that can change. You know, 3 years ago I was cutting actively, I was active in my ED, I was attempting suicide, I was really depressed and I seriously hated myself. Now, I am not actively cutting, I am not attempting suicide, I am not as depressed, I don't hate myself as much (I am still active in my ED behaviors though but working on it). The point is you can get there too, I know you can.

I had three separate doctors basically give up on me and say 'yeah your never going to get better. They told my parents to look into long term care and all other kinds of things. But here I am now stronger then ever and getting stronger. You can and will get there.

I know it is hard when we lose strength but that is when you reach out to friends, family and professionals. I know you have a treatment team (From when we have talked) and I think it would be fantastic if you reached out to them. I know how hard that can be but it helps. When you open up about your struggles you are letting others help you through and that helps lift the burden. You do not have to go through this alone.

And, you said you have no good qualities but I don't believe that. I see you posting here all the time and that leaves me to believe that you have a lot of determination. You are determined to get better. You are here asking for support and advice and that shows determination, strength and courage. Those are three fantastic qualities to posses and they will help you with this struggle.

I hope this helped and if you need ANYTHING feel free to pm me.

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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 14th 2010, 02:02 AM

[font="Comic Sans MS"]I need an deserve to be punished for eating more an keeping it down healthy feels bad terrible a nigtmare[/FONT ]o I need to cut fat of me
I swear

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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc I tuly give up I'm down so low - September 14th 2010, 02:55 AM

I can't deal
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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 14th 2010, 05:02 AM

Yes, you can deal. You are dealing, you're very good at dealing. You have a therapist who can help you think of ways to get through this, and you have friends who care about you.
Even though there are positive things you can do to make your life better (resisting urges to SH, eating healthily, focusing on good things and whatever you're passionate about), sometimes it's also just a matter of waiting for the bad times to pass. There is light at the end of the tunnel, and I expect you know it! Keep fighting to make things better for yourself. <3 Good luck, I have faith in you.


   
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Yes, you can deal. You are dealing, you're very good at dealing. You have a therapist who can help you think of ways to get through this, and you have friends who care about you.
Even though there are positive things you can do to make your life better (resisting urges to SH, eating healthily, focusing on good things and whatever you're passionate about), sometimes it's also just a matter of waiting for the bad times to pass. There is light at the end of the tunnel, and I expect you know it! Keep fighting to make things better for yourself. <3 Good luck, I have faith in you.

You sure ? I'm not sucidal
it's just my depresssion is strong an so ed is to
an I am really sick from cold

An I'm
hardely eating lately hence also dis not eat this morning so I feel even sicker


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I'm so down I don't feel calm or anything

I can't relax i won't sh purge cry overexcercise

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Re: Give up on life an everyting else like ed fight etc - September 21st 2010, 12:31 AM

Want to burn meI'll try not to



I did not burn me

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