Everything is building up...

[Saphire]

I never thought i'd be posting in the depression thread, but today I realised that I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy.

My life has never been the best really, but I've always been strong and got through it all fine (e.g. my mum dying), but 7 months ago I made this one huge mistake which I won't even go into details about, and I guess that's where it all went downhill.

I was pretty much bullied for 3 months straight after this, and I spent weeks on end just crying and literally not wanting to leave the house or see anyone.

Things started looking up recently though when I found this boy. He was like my best friend and boyfriend rolled into one, and now that's all over, and we've gone from talking from hours on end about absolutely everything, to hardly talking at all.

And now it just feels like everything's going wrong again and I've just found myself crying all the time. It feels like my one chance of happiness recently has just been taken away from me and just all the bad things that have happened are just building up on me and I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry that this is pretty long, and I don't even know what i'm expecting anyone to write, I guess it was just a bit of a rant to let it all out of my system

[Max_99]

It's amazing. The more I read, the more I'm reminded of myself.

As far as the boyfriend, that's great It's nice to have a companion, but don't have huge expectations and really try to keep an open communication. I made the same mistake, the relationship ended about 4 days ago and I thought I'd be heartbroken, but I'm not because he wasn't the same in the end....<.< Sorry for the rant....


Anyway, have you talked to someone about it like a doctor, parent, teacher, friend, etc? Maybe you could try writing in a journal too, that helps me

Best of luck! PM me if you need to talk

[Saphire]

I wouldnt go to the extreme of talking to a doctor I dont think, I'd feel so awkward talking to a teacher or parent (we're not THAT close) and I've spoken to my friends about it, but they're always like "aww i'm here for you if you need anything" but they don't get that me talking to them is me NEEDING them. That's why I came on TH because (no offence to my friends) you guys all have great advice and I know theres a lot more people on here that can relate.

[Max_99]

That makes sense

I would try the journal. I'm sorry I can't offer very great advice right now, I'm not feeling the best either =/

Anyway, hold on to hope. I promise things will look up

[~CourageousSurvivor~]

Originally Posted by Saphire

I wouldnt go to the extreme of talking to a doctor I dont think, I'd feel so awkward talking to a teacher or parent (we're not THAT close) and I've spoken to my friends about it, but they're always like "aww i'm here for you if you need anything" but they don't get that me talking to them is me NEEDING them. That's why I came on TH because (no offence to my friends) you guys all have great advice and I know theres a lot more people on here that can relate.

I think you should tell your friends that when you talk to them that is you needing them. A lot of people have trouble just talking to someone they like to take action; they like to feel helpful. If you explain to your friends that them listening to you talk about it is helpful they might be more understanding.

And, hun, I promise that there are going to be other chances for happiness in your life. I know right now you might not be able to see it but hang in there because it will come. I am kind of struggling with that same feeling at the moment and the one thing that keeps me going is realizing that there was a point when I had that happiness and it is definitely going to come again.

I am sorry that you and your friend have distanced but I promise you will find other people. I know it is hard and right now you might not want anyone but your friend but in time you will be able to let that relationship go and move on. Don't hold on too tightly to the relationship because then you might not move on and you might end up missing out on new happinesses that are meant to come your way.

Remember that you will be okay and keep hanging in there because you will recieve some more happiness with time.

If you need anything feel free to pm me.

Jenna

[strength_to_surrive_si]

h3y hunn i am always here for u