cant do it anymore

[*weepingstar*]

i cant live like this anymore. im falling apart. my entire life is nothing but lies. i was raped when i was younger. i suffer from PTSD. been in and out of eating issues. currently on a relapse from cutting. and its getting continuley worse. no1 seems to care. im hiding a relationship with a much older guy. who doesnt seem to care about me at all. im tired to being two people in one. i cant take it this isnt living. i hate myself. i hate my life.

[MidnytexRayne]

First of all.. Relax. you seem stressed out a bit.. breathe in breathe out.

Okie. I'm sorry to hear that you were raped. I was almost raped myself by someone when i was in my early 20s... I've learned to get over it but it is still in the back of my mind sometimes. Have you talked to anyone about it? - Like a really close friend or a relative...? Maybe you should see someone about it or something.. talking about it might be hard at first but once you do, you might feel better about it..

You say no one seems to care.. How do you know that? has anyone straight out SAID they didn't care or are you just assuming they don't?.. And why hide the relationship. I did that when i dated my ex [He was 16 at the time and i was 26] til i ended up pregnant, i told my mom his age and she flipped... but learned to deal. if definitely wasn't easy but I'm glad i said it. it makes me feel better.

And how is your life nothing but lies? Just curious.

[Sea Monkey]

Hey,

Im sorry to hear you were raped. You need to calm down a bit and just breathe in and out. Maybe do something you enjoy. I find that swimming relaxes me particularly. Im sure people do care, just keep on going. You can do it.

As the song goes.. ♫Dont stop believing.♫

[teen spirit]

Yes, breathing is the antidote for depression and anxiety. Long deep breaths in...and long deep exhales out. Just breathe for about 5 mins and this will help relax your body and your mind.

We care! We are here to help guide you through what is going on and thank you for having the courage and the strength to reach out to us here! That is to be admired!

**Give yourself permission to feel. When we continuously suppress how we feel, we explode, we breakdown-its ok to feel and express your emotions. Now, it is important to feel them and don't stay with them...its not necessary to take out prime real estate with those emotions. They don't define who you are! Try not to look at everything as wrong so to speak but as a process that you are learning through.

**Have you considered finding someone you can talk to about how you are feeling? Whether it be a friend, a family member, someone who you can speak with in full confidence? When you think no one cares...there is always someone out there who does...sometimes you just have to turn up a few rocks to find them

**Taking some time to look around you and find things to appreciate. I have what I call my gratitude journal and each day/night, I write in at least 5 things that I appreciate..and they can be small like: the hot water so I can take a nice shower. I know it sounds odd but it takes my mind off of what I don't want or like and puts it on what I do have working in my life. Sometimes I forget what I have until its gone.

**Watch a funny movie or hang out with friends that make me laugh. Again, this takes your mind off of what isn't working and allows you to release stress just by laughing.

Give yourself the gift of a new day! YOu may not be happy with how today turned out but always know that tomorrow is a new day and you can start all over again! Give yourself 1000 new chances and when you reach 999, you can hit the switch and start over again. Don't give up on yourself...you deserve to be happy and all that needs to happen is that you get pointed in the right direction!

I hope this helped a bit and always know...we are all here to help you through this...and also know, you can PM me anytime! I would love to help you any way I can!