Triggering (Suicide): Goodbye

[Pele]

That’s it I quit. I tried talking it didn’t help it made so much worse. It brought up past memories that I had tried to forget. My friends keep on ditching me, and then bitch about me behind my back, saying that’s it’s my fault they ditch. My dad hates me and has practically disowned me, as of the start of last year.

My mum ignores me, unless she wants to take my money. I’m constantly picked on by my brother and his mates. And no matter how hard I study I still end up failing the bloody exams, at this rate I’ll be lucky if I even pass year 12.

I hate my life, I hate the fact that I need to cut myself, for me to know that I’m real there’s no great reason for me stay here any longer, this world is better off without me. Sure people are going to say there is, and that they care about me, but in two days time. I’ll be forgotten and ignored again.

Sorry for making it so long.

[Agoraphobia♥]

Look you're right, people will say that we care, but you're also wrong because the world wouldn't be better without you, and because I won't forget about you. And a lot of other people won't. So far I've just been able to start getting better. The day after I started to get better, I began to help someone, I'm still helping that person and we talk everyday. I will never forget them, and I certainly would not forget you. The only way people will forget you, is if you left right now not giving anything or people to remember. Please, even if you don't believe me, I care. whether you believe meor not I'll be there for you, but you have to trust me for it to even possibly work.

[Pele]

Give me one damn good reason why, this world wouldnt be better off without me in it. How can you say that you wont forget about me when you dont even know me. Ive thought about this long and hard, Ive wrote a list of pros and cons of committing suicide and right now the Pros clearly outbeat the cons.

Sorry if that came off as being bitchy, but its the truth.

[~CourageousSurvivor~]

Hey there,

I can't stop you from harming yourself; I wish I could! However, I can tell you what I know and that is that sometimes when you cannot see the reasons for sticking around you just have to hang on anyways. Sometimes when we are really sad the reasons behind surviving fade but even with that fading you should hang on because those reasons will come back again. I can't make you see this I can only tell you what I know from my own experience.

You may have a hard time with your friends but the reason of 'you being the reason they ditch you.' Is not a reason. My true friends have NEVER ditched me because they respect me more than that. If they wanted to do something but didn't want me along (say a date or something) they would tell me 'I can't hang out tonight but lets do it _____" However, I didn't always have these friends in my life; there was a period of time in which I had friends that ditched me and blamed it on myself. They said things like 'You don't talk enough' 'Your sad all the time'...They were not real friends. Real friends would have stuck by me when I was struggling and the same goes for your friends.

Don't give up on finding friends that can and will be there for you though. It might take time but they can come along and when they do it can help. Other people CANNOT make you feel better about life but they can open your eyes to some things like my friends did. Hang on because sometimes the people in our lives are not the greatest but new ones can come along.

As for your dad; if he wants to disown you that is his fault. I know it hurts to not have him in your life but if he is a man that could disown his own child maybe you don't need to be around him anyways? The same goes for your mom; if she is using you for money only then try to space yourself from her. The distance might help things. I know I have problems with my mom and the distance helped immensely. As for your brother; have you talked to him about the way he treats you? I know for the longest time my older brothers were ruthless and it left me thinking they didn't love me. One day I really talked to them about it and they calmed it down a bit and I have slowly started seeing how much they do care. Brothers can be mean sometimes. I don't know why that is but a lot of the time they don't mean it; a lot of the time they are just trying to give their sisters and brothers a hard time.

Please hang in there and if you need anything feel free to pm me.

Jenna

[postup10101]

Listen, I understand how hard it is for your right now but I want to make this short and sweet. It may be hard now, but you will overcome it and you will be stronger than ever. You may want to kill yourself now, but just think a little deeper into that. You are only 17... You still have your whole life ahead of you: getting married, starting a family, doing all the things you wanted to do, etc. You will just regret it. And I am not sure if you are Roman Catholic or not, but in that religion, suicide is considered a mortal sin and it will send you directly to hell. It is much better up here on earth So just stay strong and you will make it through this.

[Pele]

I don’t care I would much rather burn in hell, then to live in this world any longer, because for me this is worse I’m living in my own personal hell here on earth, so you know the real thing isn’t going to be that much different. I haven’t just had a hard time now I’ve dealt with this for 11 years although the past 2 years have been the worst. I lack the willpower and ability to stay strong for any longer. I’M SO DONE.