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Lost_In_Thought December 5th 2010 06:22 PM

really want to kill myself right now
ive been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for years now nothing has helped . about a week ago i snapped and stabbed my dad with a knife he is ok thank god. so i got sent to a mental hospital just got out a few days ago. since then i have lost friends ppl are scared of me and my best friend doesnt even want to talk to me. i feel so abandoned i know what i did was wrong and now i have to pay for it its not like im gettin off free i charges pending and ill probably be on house arrest or probabtion. i dont feel like i have anything to live for and im alone i hate myself for the monster i have become. i cant change the past but it really sucks that ppl are goin to judge me by it. suicide seems like a really good option right now

.:Bibliophile:. December 5th 2010 06:43 PM

Re: really want to kill myself right now
Hey there,

I am sorry all this has happened to you. It sounds like a tough situation to be in. However, don't give up on yourself because things can improve. I am sorry that you have lost your friends because of this but it does not have to be the end. I think you should work on fixing the problems in your life and go from there. The more you work on you the better you will start to feel and maybe, given time, some of your friends will come around.

Are you currently in therapy? If not I suggest you look into that. It might be a good way for you to work on you and get to the bottom of the feelings you are having. Therapy is a great tool to use so if you have access to it make use of it.

I really hope this helped and if you need anything feel free to pm me.

Jenna :)

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