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Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

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Unhappy Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:23 AM

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That's it. I think I just scared off the one person I feel like I can trust. I'm such a fucking idiot. Now I realize it doesn't even matter if someone could ever love me, because I'll just mess up the whole thing and scare them away. I should never have said anything to her about my problems. I'm so stupid. I've got plenty of pills, and I think I'm going to just take them and get it over with. I'm doomed to fuck up the rest of my life anyway.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:25 AM

Don't. Life is special.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:26 AM

Even if it is special, I'm going to end up screwing it all up some way or another.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:28 AM

You won't. With 468 posts you have made the world better, whether it be one person or 300 people.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:30 AM

Half of my posts were just me ranting or asking for help anyway. I haven't done anything good for anyone.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:32 AM

I really don't think it is a good idea. Don't your parents care about you?
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 03:37 AM

Yeah, they do. But they don't understand how hard it is for me, and they can't help me...
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 04:18 AM

No, don't even think that. Its not true. You will not screw up your life, thats nonsence. Please, do not think of commiting suicide. We are all here for a reason and until we fufill that reason, we are supposed to stay here. You are probably a wonderful person and like the person above me pointed out, you have probably helped other people's lives because you are here. I am sorry that your friend doesn't seem to be around anymore. Its not your fault though, you trusted her/him and just wanted to vent. Thats a good thing. You just need to be careful who you say stuff to. You need to be able to really trust them. I have a friend that tells me about things when she is having a tough time and I am one of the only people she tells because I seem to be the only one she trusts entirely. And I will never hurt her like so many others before me have. I hope things get better for you. I am here to talk if you ever need it.


   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 04:27 AM

I don't get it. I was just looking for some comfort and reassurance, and she said she was getting freaked out and felt like I was a completely different person and then randomly got offline. I don't know what I did wrong. She's let me talk about stuff before. What if she starts breaking away from me? She's my best friend. I can't lose her.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 05:51 AM

I understand. You did nothing wrong okay, nothing. It was not you, its her. Maybe she is just having a hard day or something. It doesn't make sense that she would randomly turn on you and not want to talk. What i'd do is send her a message on email asking what is up and saying you didn't mean for her to react that way. Explain that you were just trying to get help and that you hope to have your friendship go back to normal.


   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 11:29 AM

Think positive. You won't screw up your life!

It may seem bad and rubbish right now, but in the future when everything is okay, you will look back on your past and think ''I can't believe everything has gotten better, from when I was then''. Believe in yourself, as I say; life may seem hard now, but it will improve!

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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 07:31 PM

I know it must be really tough times for you, but you have to hang in there. Nobody wants you to kill yourself. Lex is right, think positive! Youv helped people on this site, even if it was just in a small way. Your not a screw up! Nobodys perfect, but your no less perfect that other people. Things WILL improve!


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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 09:52 PM

Okay, I'm feeling a little better today. Last night I was kind of hysterical after a counseling session that just did not go well at all... Thanks for your encouragement, everyone. I'm trying my best.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 21st 2010, 10:32 PM

Thats what we want to hear=) That you are doing better, I mean.


   
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Re: Screw it - December 22nd 2010, 03:39 AM

i understand exaclty how you feel. the way i relized is that i was a failure but the thing is you want to prove to yourself and others that YOU CAN DO IT> you can throught the struggles and thehard part. i did i a m17 i have twins and so mcuh more has happend to me and i know you can do it, just go deep down and think about what your leaving. find god
   
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Re: Screw it - December 22nd 2010, 04:01 AM

I don't know how long I can make it, though. First I had anxiety, depression, and cutting to deal with, and now molestation, which the only friend I feel I can trust is too afraid to talk about. I feel completely and utterly alone.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 22nd 2010, 06:50 AM

I think you may need more help then than any friend could ever give you. Have you thought of going to counceling or something along those lines? I know that can be tough sometimes, I have had not so wonderful counceling trips as well but they really try to help you and they do know how if you let them.


   
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Re: Screw it - December 25th 2010, 02:30 AM

There is no guarantee you will screw up. Fate is not set in stone, you have control, even when you dont think so. Look inside yourself, feel yourself blossom and become something more.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 25th 2010, 08:07 PM

I just feel like God is trying to screw with me. It's like every time I try to be positive and let go of my fear, something awful happens. I'm trying to give my counselor more time, but I've been seeing her for over a year. I just figured that something would have changed by now.
   
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Re: Screw it - December 28th 2010, 04:40 AM

Change can be slow but it does happen little by little. The good shows up but you need to be able to see it. It can be anything from laughing with your friends to seeing a pretty flower while you are out walking around. Happiness comes in all forms.


   
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