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Unhappy I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 08:24 PM

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Everyday, I want to slip away more and more. I am so tired of living, of trying hard, of trying to please everyone. It would be so easy to run a razor across my wrist, or swallow a few pills. It would bring an end to my pain and suffering. I am happy on the surface but, when I am alone thoughts of suicide and painful memories come up. I have no one to speak with, I have never felt so alone as I do now. I moved to a new country without my mother. She was my only basis of support for the sixteen years I have been alive, and now, she too is gone. None of my escapes work for me anymore. Sports, drugs, reading, writing, and studying are all ineffective.
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 08:54 PM

I know exactly how you feel. I feel like killing myself too at somepoint because I can't meet my fathers expectations. There's so much pressure from him, I try my best to do good in school but getting b's as a grade just doesn't go well with him. It's so hard trying to please him and do well. But whenever I see a test I'm afraid tahr I'll fail and then when I come home I'll get beat up. I just feel like if I'm not apart of this world anymore... Things would be better off. But what keeps me alive, what gives me the will to live on is my girlfriend. I don't want to hurt her in any way so I keep my beatings a secret. I don't tell her sometimes I feel like killing myself, because she'll cry and feel pain. The same goes for my friends. They keep me from killing myself because they bring joy to my life. I hope this helps.
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 08:57 PM

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I know exactly how you feel. I feel like killing myself too at somepoint because I can't meet my fathers expectations. There's so much pressure from him, I try my best to do good in school but getting b's as a grade just doesn't go well with him. It's so hard trying to please him and do well. But whenever I see a test I'm afraid tahr I'll fail and then when I come home I'll get beat up. I just feel like if I'm not apart of this world anymore... Things would be better off. But what keeps me alive, what gives me the will to live on is my girlfriend. I don't want to hurt her in any way so I keep my beatings a secret. I don't tell her sometimes I feel like killing myself, because she'll cry and feel pain. The same goes for my friends. They keep me from killing myself because they bring joy to my life. I hope this helps.
My girlfriend and I split apart last week. I don't have a love to live for any longer.
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:06 PM

Any friends you could talk to on the phone or message like on a social network?
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:23 PM

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Any friends you could talk to on the phone or message like on a social network?
I moved to the other side of the world. I have no friends here. I can't talk to anyone close to me about this.
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:43 PM

Well then... Start with this I'll be someone who'll listen to you, and someone you can talk to.
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:46 PM

Hey... If u wanna try to contact friends from wherever you lived before... Try facebook... Just a thought..
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:50 PM

I'm not close enough to anyone for that
   
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Re: I don't want to live anymore. - February 18th 2011, 09:54 PM

Well.. Let's get to know one another then shall we? If that's alright with you
   
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