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Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

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I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 08:41 AM

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I really want to just end it now. I don't see any point anymore. Everythings a mess. I know things will probably get better but I don't want to have to wait anymore to find out if they do :/
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 04:40 PM

Emma, things will get better, it's a matter of when, not if. I've been there I know it feels like it's going to take forever, just hold on a little longer. Take things one day (or hour, or minute) at a time for now until it starts to get easier.


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 04:57 PM

Don't kill yourself.

You're going to be alright. It's going to be alright. Life gets better.

My grandma once told me (actually, she told me this today), "If you believe in your heart that you are depressed, you will be depressed. If you believe you're happy, you'll be happy."

And it's true. This week I told myself it was a lucky week, a happy week. And you know? It turned out to be one of the best weeks of my life.

You're happy, even if you don't know it. So don't kill yourself, dear.
   
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 06:02 PM

But I just can't face this. Everyone knows and there all talking about me and noone will leave me alone I hate this. So why wait for things to get better if I have to put up with crap I can't handle now?


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 06:43 PM

hey emma dont think what others say you have got your life to live and in this world i have learned one thing that the people who talk about others are those people who dont have anything to do in their lives ... so just dont end up your life becoz of some losers ...just live your life and enjoy it totally and i completely agreed wid eldora's grandmother "If you believe in your heart that you are depressed, you will be depressed. If you believe you're happy, you'll be happy."
believe it juz forget everythin and start enjoyin your life....
   
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 06:55 PM

I can't ignore everyone though. And I've tried so hard to be possitive but everything just keeps getting worse :/


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:01 PM

so just stay away from those people ...and just stop thinkin like everythins gettin worse...just stay wid your friends and i can surely say that they can help you wid your matter ....
   
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:12 PM

I wish I could but I can't avoid everyone and I have no friends anymore they all hate me


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:16 PM

okay then i would suggest you to stop thinkin about everyone and keep yourself busy in somekind of activities which you like it will keep your mind distracted and some time later you will just forget about everything....
   
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:16 PM

How do you know they hate you? if you don't have friends where you live at least you have friends here on TH look suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, if you kill yourself it will impact EVERY SINGLE PERSON in your life your friends,your family, everybody, there is hope out there, you need to fight. i have been in the same place you are now. whether you believe me or not or even see it there is a reason to stay alive, there are many reasons to keep on living, don't kill yourself, things will get better


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:34 PM

There ignoring me and acting like bitches :/
I know it affects everyone but it's not like they would care they would get over it


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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 07:37 PM

hey told you not to think about it again and again just coz it will to nothin good to instead of of it, it will only hurt you more and more....believe itz not worth it...
   
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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 08:56 PM

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This is a common misunderstanding of suicidal people. As someone who's thought about it and who has lost people to it, I can tell you it isn't true. I was struggling recently until I took a self defense class and my depression and suicidal thoughts are completely GONE. Here's a blog entry I wrote about what I learned from the master, see if any of this is helpful.

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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 12th 2011, 11:31 PM

If they're ignoring you and acting like bitches, then Emma, you may need to just find some new friends who like you for who you are and maybe even share some of your same interests. Whatever you do, though, don't kill yourself. This is coming from a person that was formerly in the same state as yourself, and I'm telling you, it does get better.

Just imagine yourself in a place filled with flowers or whatever else you like better than flowers, listen to some good music, and try to clear your mind but for that place for a little while, until you can confront your problems without having suicidal thoughts.

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Re: I really want to kill myself now - March 13th 2011, 01:32 AM

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Emma, look. There is always someone that cares! Actually, there are a lot of someones that care. Here at TH, people care about you, but even at school, there are people that care. It's just a matter of finding them. If you can't find them yourself, that's fine, we're here to help you and give you tips!

Another thing you could try is to find friends through things you like. For instance, if you like to read, go to the library and start a chat with any random person that looks like a potential friend and start talking. Once you have one good friend, many will follow! Friends of friends, their friends. You just have to find one person, that will lead you to many others.


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It's not surprising you think about it that way, but that's not true. You're young, you have all your life in front of you. The only thing you can do to beat the bullies and the bad guys is to stay alive! Be a pain to them, don't give up and show them that you're not the one to be bothered by their actions.

Not too long ago, a teen around the area where I live ended her life and the 2 days later there were over 15 messages in the newspaper, good for almost a full page. People do care, the last thing they want is you to end it. It's complicated, it sucks at times, but you can do it!!!!!


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