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Part III:July 22nd,1995 - March 25th 2011, 07:11 AM

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when i was two weeks away from graduating high school..i was in the office,when i recived a call from my mother.

She told me that my grandmother had fallen down the stairs in her apt.she was on the floor for several hours before my older brother found her.

she was taken to the hospital with a severe spinal injury.

after she got out..my parents let her come live with us..

She could barely walk..she needed the help of a walker to get around..this was not the same person i grew up with and loved.

I was pretty much her caregiver.my parents couldnt handle the day to day job of caring for her..So almost all of the job was left to me.

i would put her to bed everynight..making sure she wasnt in pain.

But then she would get drugs through the mail all the time.And then one night she was on the floor looking for pills that were not there.

so i told my father about what i had seen..and he told me that she had been like that for a long time..

I said"what do you mean"...and he said that she had been addicted to prescription drugs for over 40 years..

I couldnt believe it...40 years..are you kidding me..

Its sooo agonizing to watch someone that you love slowly slip away from you..there are no words to decribe it

For four agonizing years..i had to sit back and watch her slip away from me..and there was nothing i could do about it.

All the sleepless nights...all the cries of "help me..help me".all the drug withdrawls..and the rocking back and forth in her chair.

We felt that we couldnt take care of her anymore...So we made the painful decison to put her in a nursing home.

I will never forget walking in there for the first time thinking"This is what it has come to".

Then after a brief period of her being in the nursing home.We decided as a family to let her move back in with us..

that was a bad idea.

Because not long after she moved back in..She attempted suicide in her bedroom..This was in the summer of 1995.

When she came home a few days later...my aunt from reno called and said"Let me take her off your hands for a while..you guys need a break".

I thought to myself"she's going on a trip.that she would come back,and mabye things would be less stressful on all of us.Because lets face it she needed a break from us and we needed a break from her".

Little that i knew..she wasnt coming back.

before she left on her trip...she told my father"you wont see me again".

of course my father didnt know what she was talking about.He must have thought"she must be high again or saying this out of spite or something".

Well she went to reno to stay with my aunt.

I thought she would be coming home soon.and i would see her again.

But she never came home.

On july 22nd,1995..my grandmother commited suicide by placing a bag over her head.

The next day my father came in and told me what happened..

I was in complete shock.I didnt believe what was happening.

in my mind i was thinking"OH NO NOT AGAIN!!".

i had lost two close freinds to suicide..and now this...

I miss her so much since she has been gone..If only i could have eased her pain and suffering..

But i couldnt
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Re: Part III:July 22nd,1995 - March 25th 2011, 09:34 AM

Drew this is so unbelievably sad, and I cannot describe the sympathy I have for you and your family having gone through this. It's tragic that an old woman had to feel as if suicide was the last option, and I honestly am sorry for everything you've been through. I can tell life hasn't treated you well so far, and the fact you still care so much gives me huge respect for you as a person. I think you're such an amazing person and that you have the potential to help so much. People around you have passed, I know that must be hard, but you must carry on living for them. You have a life which is capable of so much, so don't let go of it.

May their souls rest in peace. <3

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Re: Part III:July 22nd,1995 - March 26th 2011, 05:26 AM

thanks hollie..that really means a lot to me...

if you think that is unbelievably sad...just wait till you hear the last part of this story...

i sure dont feel amazing...i dont feel like i help anyone here
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