TeenHelp
Support Forums Today's Posts

Get Advice Connect with TeenHelp Resources
HelpLINK Facebook     Twitter     Tumblr     Instagram    Hotlines    Safety Zone    Alternatives

You are not registered or have not logged in

Hello guest! (Not a guest? Log in above!)

As a guest on TeenHelp you are only able to use some of our site's features. By registering an account you will be able to enjoy unlimited access to our site, and will be able to:

  • Connect with thousands of teenagers worldwide by actively taking part in our Support Forums and Chat Room.
  • Find others with similar interests in our Social Groups.
  • Express yourself through our Blogs, Picture Albums and User Profiles.
  • And much much more!

Signing up is free, anonymous and will only take a few moments, so click here to register now!


Depression and Suicide If you or a loved one is feeling depressed or suicidal, you are not alone. Talk with other users about your feelings here.

Closed Thread
 
Thread Tools Search this Thread
  (#1 (permalink)) Old
Ella.x Offline
Member
I've been here a while
********
 
Ella.x's Avatar
 
Name: Ella
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Location: England

Posts: 1,461
Join Date: February 24th 2009

Don't know what to do - July 1st 2011, 12:14 PM

I came off my antidepressants a couple of weeks ago because I couldn't afford them. I didn't think they did anything, but I feel so much worse off them. I cry all the time. I keep having to go and hide in the toilets at work because I can't stop myself from crying. I'm struggling just to get myself to work in the mornings, let alone cook/clean/look after myself. I don't know what to do. None of the proffessionals involved in my care evn know I'm off my meds because I haven't told anyone. This is the worst I've felt in years. I want to die, but I don't have the energy to kill myself. I don't know what to do. Someone please help me. I've failed.
   
  (#2 (permalink)) Old
bailatyvm Offline
bada bing bada boom.
Regular TeenHelper
*****
 
bailatyvm's Avatar
 
Name: Faith
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Location: over the rainbowwww

Posts: 466
Blog Entries: 124
Join Date: June 1st 2011

Re: Don't know what to do - July 1st 2011, 12:54 PM

You haven't failed, and I expect that what you are feeling is absolutely normal. Your body has probably gotten more used to the meds than you realized...so a bit of an imbalance has ensued. I'd definitely recommend telling them that you are off of these meds so that they can figure out a way to help you differently OR occasionally they can help you pay for them. Good luck.


--
searching for myself...
and hugs. mostly hugs.
--
   
  (#3 (permalink)) Old
Ella.x Offline
Member
I've been here a while
********
 
Ella.x's Avatar
 
Name: Ella
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Location: England

Posts: 1,461
Join Date: February 24th 2009

Re: Don't know what to do - July 1st 2011, 02:10 PM

I had 4 days of absolutely hellish withdrawal from them (info on withdrawal from my meds if you're interested - http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/506427) - it was worse than when I quit smoking. This is the first time in over 2 years that I haven't been on antidepressants. I don't know if I can go to work tomorrow. I can't cope. I feel like I am losing my mind.

As for money, I have applied for financial help towards prescriptions from the NHS and financial help in general from my local council but both applications have been rejected because I am under 25 and have no children. So basically, if I'm ever going to be able to get back on my meds I either have to get pregnant or just not eat - neither are practical obviously.

I don't know how I am going to fix this mess. I've got a pack of sleeping tablets next to me and I'm struggling to find a reason not to take them all. I want it all to stop. I'm supposed to be seeing my care co-ordinator on wednesday if I can make it till then, but I can't see how she's going to be able to help me. I'm so confused.
   
  (#4 (permalink)) Old
bailatyvm Offline
bada bing bada boom.
Regular TeenHelper
*****
 
bailatyvm's Avatar
 
Name: Faith
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Location: over the rainbowwww

Posts: 466
Blog Entries: 124
Join Date: June 1st 2011

Re: Don't know what to do - July 2nd 2011, 03:15 AM

Try to not let yourself be alone, if there's any way that can happen...it sounds like you're on the verge of making risky decisions and since I obviously don't want that to happen, get around people just so they're there.


--
searching for myself...
and hugs. mostly hugs.
--
   
  (#5 (permalink)) Old
Ella.x Offline
Member
I've been here a while
********
 
Ella.x's Avatar
 
Name: Ella
Age: 28
Gender: Female
Location: England

Posts: 1,461
Join Date: February 24th 2009

Re: Don't know what to do - July 2nd 2011, 06:45 AM

I don't have anyone. I live on my own and I barely see my friends because I've pushed them away. I can't expect them to be there for me after the way I've acted. I work 40 hours a week, but when I'm not working I am completely alone. If I'm still feeling like this on wednesday, then I'm going to do it properly. No wimping out and calling for help. I am going to kill myself. I have been patient, I've tried so hard to make myself better but I'm sick of trying. I genuinely cannot cope anymore and I don't even want to try. I'm sorry for wasting your time.
   
  (#6 (permalink)) Old
bailatyvm Offline
bada bing bada boom.
Regular TeenHelper
*****
 
bailatyvm's Avatar
 
Name: Faith
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Location: over the rainbowwww

Posts: 466
Blog Entries: 124
Join Date: June 1st 2011

Re: Don't know what to do - July 3rd 2011, 02:46 PM

You haven't wasted my time...just made me sad that I can't really be there for you :/ You can't let this control your life. You know that all of those friends you have would feel responsible for you making that decision. Which means that they DO care. Take a risk and just admit to them how weak you're feeling right now.


--
searching for myself...
and hugs. mostly hugs.
--
   
Closed Thread

Bookmarks

Thread Tools Search this Thread
Search this Thread:

Advanced Search

Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are Off
Pingbacks are Off
Refbacks are Off




All material copyright 1998-2018, TeenHelp.
Terms | Legal | Privacy | Conduct | Complaints

Powered by vBulletin®.
Copyright ©2000-2019, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search engine optimization by vBSEO.
Theme developed in association with vBStyles.