Triggering (Suicide): done

[I Miss You]

i love you lil sis.....

im thinking of attempting suicide right at this momment

[alibear101]

please don't drew, i love you. please don't break my heart

[I Miss You]

god....im such a terrible,awful,freind
fuck my life

[colie18]

Drew,
I am so late on this.. I am terribly sorry for that...

Here I go:

Drew,
You are amazing and worth so much more then you think you do. There are countless people who would hate to see you hurting this bad. You mean a lot to people on here, to people in you life, to me, to everyone. Everyone has their own version of an ugly life, but the past is the past. Live for the future. You are so strong, you don't even see it. I see it. I see a strong guy who doesn't want to do this. He doesn't want to end his life for he would hurt all the people who love him. You are strong and you can pull through this. I know you can.

You deserve so much more then what you think you do. You deserve this world, because you are that amazing.

If you don't believe that people don't love you.. then look to me.. I love you.. I love everyone one. Everyone deserves love and that includes you. So yes Drew I do love you, you mean a lot to me. You are a human and you deserve to live.

Think about this Drew. You don't want to do this.. why because you are on here alive and replying to everyone above (of them trying to stop you) you don't want to do this... I can see right through you.

You are scared, and it is okay to be scared. Life is a scary thing. It is a roller coaster parts worse then others right? Don't get off the ride right now though because you never know you could love it in the end. Stay on the ride I can promise you this it is worth it in the end.

Death is a way out.. but there is no turning back. Once it is done.. It is done.

I know you don't want to do this. You don't need to. You have everyone on here for you, and you have all your friends.

You have me.

Don't end it now.. you have your whole life ahead of you.

I will always be here no matter what. Every step of the way, every time you fall I will be there to pick you back up. You are not alone. I will always be right beside you.

Just take life one step at a time.... trust me its worth it in the end.

~Colie xoxo

[alibear101]

Originally Posted by I Miss You

god....im such a terrible,awful,freind
fuck my life

shhh don't say that drew, you are not a terrible friend. i love you and you know that. you know that I'm always going to be here. you are a sweet, kind and caring friend, you are a perfect guy. leans your head on my shoulder* i love you so much <3

[I Miss You]

Originally Posted by colie18

Drew,
I am so late on this.. I am terribly sorry for that...

Here I go:

Drew,
You are amazing and worth so much more then you think you do. There are countless people who would hate to see you hurting this bad. You mean a lot to people on here, to people in you life, to me, to everyone. Everyone has their own version of an ugly life, but the past is the past. Live for the future. You are so strong, you don't even see it. I see it. I see a strong guy who doesn't want to do this. He doesn't want to end his life for he would hurt all the people who love him. You are strong and you can pull through this. I know you can.

You deserve so much more then what you think you do. You deserve this world, because you are that amazing.

If you don't believe that people don't love you.. then look to me.. I love you.. I love everyone one. Everyone deserves love and that includes you. So yes Drew I do love you, you mean a lot to me. You are a human and you deserve to live.

Think about this Drew. You don't want to do this.. why because you are on here alive and replying to everyone above (of them trying to stop you) you don't want to do this... I can see right through you.

You are scared, and it is okay to be scared. Life is a scary thing. It is a roller coaster parts worse then others right? Don't get off the ride right now though because you never know you could love it in the end. Stay on the ride I can promise you this it is worth it in the end.

Death is a way out.. but there is no turning back. Once it is done.. It is done.

I know you don't want to do this. You don't need to. You have everyone on here for you, and you have all your friends.

You have me.

Don't end it now.. you have your whole life ahead of you.

I will always be here no matter what. Every step of the way, every time you fall I will be there to pick you back up. You are not alone. I will always be right beside you.

Just take life one step at a time.... trust me its worth it in the end.

~Colie xoxo

thank you for that sweet reply collie..it means so much to me
but i dont know what so good about me...everyone i care about either leaves me or dies...

idk..if i made it look like a accident..then it wouldnt hurt as much

[I Miss You]

Originally Posted by alibear101

shhh don't say that drew, you are not a terrible friend. i love you and you know that. you know that I'm always going to be here. you are a sweet, kind and caring friend, you are a perfect guy. leans your head on my shoulder* i love you so much <3

your so sweet little sister
i love you too
but i dont think im strong enough
i dont think i can do this

[alibear101]

you can and you will. i rpomse

[chickenonsteroids]

Drew,

I've been following this for a while but haven't said much because everyone is and will continue giving you great support.

What I have to say is that every life is worth something, and leaving would be saying yours is worthless that's not true. At all.

Sooooooo many people are here saying that you mean loads to them, you wouldn't want to see them hurt would you?

Try to find an activity that brings happiness to you, try playing an instrument, listen to some jazz

granted that's all easier said that done but no one ever said life is on cruise mode.

best of luck

[I Miss You]

starts cutting
my demons they are too powerful
im sorry guys but this is the end for me*cries*

[Katie Lydia]

Look this is some tough love.

Drew, i don't know you but i've read your threads, posts etc.

People obviously care about you on this and they have never met you, that is saying something. You come back to this forum daily and don't take this the wrong way but that's a cry for help, look at the damn post count on this. Cutting helps i'm not going to lie but it doesn't fix the situation, suicide certainly doesn't either. Surely it would feel better to plow through this? Easier said than done i know.

People are posting daily on this to help you and it doesn't sound like your even trying, a bit of a slap in the face if you ask me. You obviously want help otherwise you wouldn't post daily but refuse to take it? People have gone through shit loads worse than you, myself and anyone else, we all have our ugly sides in life but it's up to yourself to get that under control. I know it's not an overnight fix but neither is moping around.

What would you to say to someone else that was in the exact same situation as you? Give up? No. So why should you? I've been down in a fucking miserable hole then shat on in that hole and attempted suicide not once, not twice but 5 fucking times and yet here i am. I've fought through my shit, time for you now. Moping around does fuck all for your mood, im not saying you need to be happy happy all the time but correct me if im wrong (and i probably will be) but it sounds like your not helping yourself, time you spoke to someone NOT on the internet about this and i mean a professional, they can get you through this.

Sorry if im being harsh but since you keep wanting to kill yourself i thought the tough love method was worth a shot.

[alibear101]

Originally Posted by I Miss You

starts cutting
my demons they are too powerful
im sorry guys but this is the end for me*cries*

*takes your hands and holds them tightly* its not the end, its only the beginning

[I Miss You]

i feel like im hurting everyone here
if i did i didnt mean too

[alibear101]

Originally Posted by I Miss You

i feel like im hurting everyone here
if i did i didnt mean too

you didn't hurt anyone sweetie, you will hurt us if you leave. please, don't leave, you are too important in our lives

[Katie Lydia]

Originally Posted by I Miss You

i feel like im hurting everyone here
if i did i didnt mean too

Did i say that? Please quote where i said that.

It's annoying i'm not going to lie when you have 100 replies to this thread with people pleading and writing paragraph after paragraph and you reply with *cuts*.

This place obviously doesn't help you so in my opinion i think you should take a break from the forum and see a professional but i know you won't you don't listen to anyone and will continue to reply with *cuts* and *ready to kill self*

[chickenonsteroids]

Waiiiitttt a minute, you need to see a professional. This has been going on for months and I only just realised.

You need to say that you want to help yourself first, people here don't want you to go but you can only get out of this by you being active about it.

Do something to help yourself, if you think your efforts are useless try again. Your life wasn't going to be 'easy' no one has that. You need to make your life worth it. that requires hard work

Good luck

[alibear101]

Originally Posted by Katie Lydia

Did i say that? Please quote where i said that.

It's annoying i'm not going to lie when you have 100 replies to this thread with people pleading and writing paragraph after paragraph and you reply with *cuts*.

This place obviously doesn't help you so in my opinion i think you should take a break from the forum and see a professional but i know you won't you don't listen to anyone and will continue to reply with *cuts* and *ready to kill self*

Excuse me: Back the hell off. If it annoys you so much then don't read the replies okay? This sweet guy, does listen when you treat him with respect, he doesn't respond to tough love. he responds to care, and love which all his life has lacked. so before you go off saying he should leave think about the fact that for his 22 years he has been alone, his best friend commit suicide and killed his family, another friend committed suicide.He is an amazingly strong guy and he deserves support not the shit that you attempt. I'm sorry for reacting this way but i care about him, a lot and you are not helping the situation.

[Katie Lydia]

Originally Posted by alibear101

I'm sorry for reacting this way but i care about him, a lot and you are not helping the situation.

Ok first, no need to be rude.

I understand that you do care about him and believe it or not, i care as i have tried to commit suicide and the only way your gonna get help is by helping yourself and it appears he's not.

I don't need his life story, do you want mine? I was raped, i suffer from bulimia, self harming, i was admitted under the mental health act to a psychiatric unit, i tried to commit suicide 5 times, i went on a self destructive spiral with drugs, sex with strangers and alcohol. His story is no worse than mine the same way my story is no worse than his. We all have shit to deal with and we don't get better until we decide we want to get better, that's his and his decision alone to make.

Im obviously not helping but neither is anyone else because he doesn't take anyone's advice, not mine and not yours. People are agreeing that he needs to see someone professional as this forum is obviously not helping! I'm not telling him to leave at all, i don't have the right to. Im suggesting that he takes a break and get helped by a professional.

[alibear101]

Originally Posted by Katie Lydia

Ok first, no need to be rude.

I understand that you do care about him and believe it or not, i care as i have tried to commit suicide and the only way your gonna get help is by helping yourself and it appears he's not.

I don't need his life story, do you want mine? I was raped, i suffer from bulimia, self harming, i was admitted under the mental health act to a psychiatric unit, i tried to commit suicide 5 times, i went on a self destructive spiral with drugs, sex with strangers and alcohol. His story is no worse than mine the same way my story is no worse than his. We all have shit to deal with and we don't get better until we decide we want to get better, that's his and his decision alone to make.

Im obviously not helping but neither is anyone else because he doesn't take anyone's advice, not mine and not yours. People are agreeing that he needs to see someone professional as this forum is obviously not helping! I'm not telling him to leave at all, i don't have the right to. Im suggesting that he takes a break and get helped by a professional.

we continue to talk every night. you have no idea how strong and amazing this guy is. do you stay up every night to talk to him? no. do you comfort him? no. but he is getting better, slowly, everyday he gets through it, taking it hour by hour, day by day. today, on the phone after about 2 weeks of talking, i heard this sweet boy laugh. i know as cheesy as that sounds, he has never laughed on the phone, but today he has. it just shows you how far he has come. if you really don't want his life story then get off of this post and forget about him. I'm going to stick around and help him out because he is an amazing guy and clearly something is helping him and we need to keep that going.

[Reverie.]

I'm going to go ahead and close this thread since the advice is pretty much repetetive. Drew, if you'd like some extra advice from else where, try out HelpLINK and LiveHelp some time. It may be that people there will give you a diverse range of answers, rather than what you've heard before. Feel free to PM me if you want to talk about any of this.

Take care,
Hollie.