Triggering: Out of control?

[DomoKay]

Well, I'm sure nobody will even read this or reply. Because I really don't think anyone cares, honestly. So, I'm not really sure why I'm even writing this. But I am for some reason.

I've been depressed for... I don't know how long. As far as I can remember. It mostly started when I went into high school. I really feel like there's nothing else I can do about it. I've been multiple medications, seen plenty of different therapists, and I've been in a partial-inpatient program twice... I'm still so unhappy. Like, I just feel so out of control... I'm suicidal, but I'm too weak to actually do it. I feel like I'm so depressed I'm not even motivated to build up the energy to even kill myself.. I get so angry over such stupid, little things and I take it out on the people I love and myself... I've overdosed and done other harmful things before, but obviously not well enough since, I'm still here.

I don't really know what I'm even asking for. Like, what else is there to do? Just die? I really feel like that's the only solution... Sorry for being all whiney and just stupid.

[FillingWithHope]

Your not alone. I feel the exact same way. I've been diagnosed to for a while. I go through everything you are. It sucks doesn't it? Your not being whiney or stupid at all.

[DomoKay]

Thanks for the support, but that didnt really help matters. Like I said, nobody even cares lawl. Might as well die I can say whatever because nobody will read this Fuck you, worrrrrld.

[amandaann]

It will get better, just gotta be optimistic Hun. Pm me anytime

[misunderstoodgirl]

first off you are not alone and your not whiney or stupid you going thourgh a rough time i know it feels hopeless but thing will get better