I Think I'm Depressed

[mysteryxd]

Since junior high school I have put on a happy mask. I am always the nice person. I help people but never help myself. They're happy and I'm not anymore. Now that I'm entering college, I know that it for sure was a mask. I'm not happy anymore. I want to cry almost every moment. I can no longer fall asleep fast anymore and I have been pulling the blankets up too far on my bed from all my movements in my sleep. I think i'm ugly, fat, stupid, a jerk, useless, and a horrible person. I have been eating way less too and am not interested in anything anymore. I used to know what I wanted to do with my life, now I just don't know. I don't swear, I don't drink, I have no desire to be near other people (even my family and friends), and I don't have any of the desires anybody else has; especially driving. I would never commit suicide but I do wonder what people would do if I was dead. I always hope for something bad to happen to me, because I think I deserve it. I took some depression tests and they all say I am very highly up there. Am I really depressed?

[Silver Starlight]

You might be depressed, the symptoms match. Go to a psychiatrist to make sure and start therapy if so. As a little advice from me, do little different things from time to another and take your mind off things. Especially with the stress because of studies, you need sometime for yourself and not other people all the time. Hope this helps.

[Magaly]

Hey hun, I'm sorry you've been feeling so sad
I agree with Aimee, if you think your depressed you should talk to someone. It really helps.
Feel better!
PM me anytime!