My boyfriends story

[SarSar91]

Me and my B/f have been reading some of the post in this section and my b/f want to share his experience too....so everything you read below is by him.


Hello, I hope this story will bring some comfort and help anyone who is suffering at this time.

I'm Kevin i'll be 30 in Jan so I have quite a few year experience in me and I at several points in my life have experience depression and even suicidal thoughts, My life had not been so great from the moment I was born in & out of hospitals various operations but dispite all that I had a very good chidhood right up untill I started Secondary school.

I was bullied from day one it started out as name calling and I could handle that but then turned into torture beatings on daily basis and it became a routine that I learned to expect. Name calling in a morning, afternoon getting pushed about, punched, kicked and even pushed down the stairs.
Then after I had taken 2 years of the same shit day in day out, I SNAPPED, i flew at the kid who had pushed me the most, I didn't care how big he was or the fact that I knew he often carried a knife to school and punched him with all my might. BIG MISTAKE!!!

Next thing I knew I was being pull off this kid by who I hope was a teacher, But no it was his older brother and they slammed me against that wall so hard the pain just shot through me and I went down and the beating went on for ages and then everyone except 3 althought i couldn't make out who they were but one of then went to get help and the 2 girls tried helping my to my feet but as soon that got me up another wave of pain shot over me and I blacked out.

When I next came round I was in the back of a ambulance, I tried to make out if anyone was there but there was no-one but the paramedic and I felt so alone and in so much pain just thought to myself "let me die I don't want this life anymore" and I just blacked out.

I woke up in ward on my own surrounded by wires and machines beeping away in the distance I could see nurses and doctor walking around, Then a nurse came to me "Hello Kevin, Can you hear me?" I nodded "Good how are you feeling?" Now shall I be scarcastic? "Groovey" I said.

I had suffered 5 broken ribs, broken arm and wrist, a ruptured spleen which had to be removed and I had been in a coma for a week.


I'll continue rest abit later but I need a drink right now oh and yes there is a point and a happy ending to all this

[SarSar91]

So I started my road to recovery from then and 6 weeks later I returned to school much to the shock of many people, But although I had recovered on the outside on the inside I was filled with so much hate, anger and sadness.

The bullying calmed down to just simple name calling but just that got me on the edge and I realised this was going to be a problem and I needed to control this, so i wnet on a anger management course and I learnt to control. However in my view the course had worked too well because I was so good a supressing my anger it just all built up.

So because I had no way of venting this anger I turned to self harming and started cutting my arms which never really solved anything but i figured I've only got to do this untill I leave school and things will be better after then. But it wasn't sure the bullying stopped no more beatings, I even made friends and girls were talking to me too but how I felt about myself hadn't changed, Life had turned from a fight to survival to a tv show and I was just acting and pretending everything was ok.

It was then I hit rock bottom I turned to suicide, I tried jumping off a bridge but then decided not as I couldn't stand the thought of causing a accident, I overdosed few time but obviously not enough but of course my parent found out and they were upset with me and with themselfs for not seeing the signs. I was made to see professional help and in time I got my life back on track.

I started feeling better about myself and that was because I knew people cared, I had my first G/f, I learnt to drive and even got a decent job and my own place after me and my G/f split up I met someone else But she wasn't very nice so that didn't last long.
Then along came my 3rd GF Rachel we met in 2003 moved in together and life seemed perfect at last, in 2004 I asked her to marry and we was due to marry in summer 2005 but few weeks before the wedding she dropped a bombshell on me that I didn't even see coming...She had cheated of me with a friend from work, I forgave her and pushed it to the back of my mind and got married Another big mistake!!

2 Years later we had a baby and I named her Holly and things were ok but then in 2009 I found out that my ex had still been seeing or at least remained in contact with the guy she cheated on me with and my life came crashing down once again and we divorced but split on good terms. I had 1 g/f after Rachel but that didn't last long. I now had lots of experience with women and relationships and I knew what mistakes I had made in past and I knew how I wanted to be treated.

I the met Sarah who was 18 at the time and I was 28 big age gap and it was because of this age gap I never really expected anything to happen between us, so we talked online for a bit and eventually set a date to meet up. We arranged to meet at local (Mall) and when I saw her I thought wow she's short and at 4ft "10 she is the shortest girl I've ever been with but that doesn't bother me , we talked over coffee I did most of talking and I thought "i'm boring her" so with that I offered her a lift home. Before she got out of car I asked if she wanted to see me again and she said yes I went to give her a hug but I don't know why or how but we ended up kissing instead and she didn't push away.

I look back on my life now and i'm amazed at how far i've come and what I've been through to get here.

No mater how crappy life may seem right now it does get better, look at me I felt I was going to be on my own with no friends and life wouldn't be worth living.
But I have my own place I have a beautiful daughter, I'm a driving instructor, I have great relationship with my parents and my g/f parents and I've got the most wonderful girl by my side, life isn't perfect but I know i'll manage.

Don't give up hope I'm glad my attempts to killed myself didn't work

[SarSar91]

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[j3s0n]

Amazing story. Maybe I'm cynical because I'm young but I don't believe everyone will get such a happy ending though.

Really good to hear that you're finally happy in your life! You deserve peace after what you've been through.