Non-PG13 (Strong Language): I want to die

Rooni3 · 10:02 PM

I'm usually a really positive person, but for the past few months or so that has been shot to shit. There have been so many instances where I just give everything to the people I love the most but not only does it go unappreciated, those people end up forgetting about me.
What's the point of having so much love and positivity bottled up inside me if there's never gonna be anyone to share it with?
I honestly just want to die. Just go away forever. I've never been so down for so long in my life. I am completely miserable with my life as I see it. I just want to laugh, really laugh. Not this mask I've been putting on everyday to hide who I am now to look like who I used to be.
I'm so tired. I've never been so tired. I just want to sleep forever.

better-than-ecstasy · R.I.P. Tatyana Sawka June 20, 1998- April 9, 2012

Just take it step by step. Sure its rough now, but just look around the corner. If people just forget you, then they aren't worth being with. Love is very powerful, but with nobody to share it with, it turns around. If you need a friend, I'll be here. People say treat people how you want to be treated, well not every body feels the same way that a certain person does. See how these people want to be treated, then see where that takes you. Its just a feeling right now, but if you are feeling this way, then talk to some one and let out your emotions.

SarSar91 · **Re: I want to die -** September 20th 2011, 09:54 PM

Hi rooni3 what do you thing has cause you to feel like this, lets see if we can all help u with this?

Rooni3 · **Re: I want to die -** September 20th 2011, 10:15 PM

Lately its been my friends. I can be surrounded by them and still feel alone. I used to be able to be myself around them and we used to be close and now they're all slowly drifting away from me. I feel like there's no point in being me anymore because I'm the type of person that is capable of loving anyone to my fullest. Now I'm just worn out. I'm seeing myself hate everything and everyone for not loving me back or understanding me. But that's not me. I still find time to care for other people even though I feel like killing myself.

Rooni3 · **Re: I want to die -** September 20th 2011, 10:17 PM

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Originally Posted by BruceLeeDemarcus

Just take it step by step. Sure its rough now, but just look around the corner. If people just forget you, then they aren't worth being with. Love is very powerful, but with nobody to share it with, it turns around. If you need a friend, I'll be here. People say treat people how you want to be treated, well not every body feels the same way that a certain person does. See how these people want to be treated, then see where that takes you. Its just a feeling right now, but if you are feeling this way, then talk to some one and let out your emotions.

Thank you. Its good to know there's people in the world like you with good hearts.

SarSar91 · **Re: I want to die -** September 21st 2011, 09:16 AM

That does tend to happen as you get older and the fact that you still find time to care and love others is a good thing and someone will see that in you and will return the love back to you.

I have few friends most now have gone or moved away or just stopped talking but friends come and go and some will stick by you no matter what......just sounds like you've not met that one yet.

And you can always talk to me

Rooni3 · **Re: I want to die -** September 21st 2011, 05:12 PM

That's true. Thank you so much.