Triggering (Suicide): I need someone to talk to.

[Different16]

I feel so lonely all the time, and I just feel like ending my own life at times. I've attempted suicide twice in my life so far, and I've cut myself. I really don't have many friends, and I just wish that I had someone to talk to.

[Some Random Dude]

Same here.

[BlackShadows]

I know exactly how you feel. I feel lonely all the time to.
Have you thought about talking to your parents about this, if they don't already know. Or maybe you could talk to a therapist or councellor. I go to a councellor. It helps me sometimes, not a lot, but I do know some people who have gone to a therapist and it really helped them. I guess it's different for some people.

[Palmolive]

Hi there Different16.

I am really sorry to hear that things are so rough for you right now, it sounds to me like you're going through a really tough time. The positive thing about this is that although you're feeling this way and you are struggling, you're still here and you and still going on! And that's great.

Self harm is a horrible thing to cope with even though we tend to use it as a coping technique. It can become addictive and at times we can want to do it so badly to stop the emotional pain we're experiencing but at the same time not want to do it so badly, if this makes sense? It can become a viscous cycle and I would do anything to help you get out of that if you feel you're already in that cycle or do anything to help you to stop yourself from getting in that badly. You ARE worth more than self harm and you don't deserve the pain you are inflicting upon yourself. At the end of the day, no matter how much you feel it may help in the moment, at the end of the day you still feel exactly the same and the underlying problem will still be there.

As for feeling suicidal, I can only tell you what I think. That I know and understand partly as to how hard it can be to keep yourself alive while you're having these thoughts. They are unplesent and I am guessing you feel like life is pretty dull and pointless and what ever else these thoughts make you feel, but this is just how it is now. I know thats hard to believe but things will get better for you. It's going to be hard work and it's going to take a lot of time but you CAN get there. Never give up.

You're not alone in this, you have us right here behind you and we'll keep holding on to you until you can manage to fight this on your own. You won't be left on your own, ever. You can do this. If you ever need anyone, I am always here, feel free to contact me.

Stay strong.
Jessie

[Venenum]

Cutting is okay. But attempting suicide is just stupid.

You're doing the right thing, seeking someone to communicate with.
Try to find someone who shares your thoughts and interests, because that is what un-lonelyness is all about. "Being with your people".

Again, don't be a fool. Because then, you'll seek out other fools. Which will lead to a group of fools, doing stupid things only fools would do.

[Different16]

Thanks everyone. I really don't know how to talk to people very well. I'm kind of shy, but I try not to be. I'm really glad that I came across this website. I'm just too afraid to talk to someone about things in person. Having someone stare at me like a psychologist does, just makes me feel really uncomfortable. And I can't talk to my friends about it, because they know me really well, and I'm afraid that I might lose them if I tell them things like that, and I definitely won't talk to my parents. So I'm really glad to have met you all, and I thank you all so very much for the advice.

[Some Random Dude]

I was going to write more, but I'm shy too...

[Love.Peace.Happiness]

So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around. Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing? They'll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your bestfriends? They're not going to care. Right? No. What's the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive. While your bestfriend sits there in tears. That girl that you'd smile ...at but never talk to? She's now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself. The person who used to bully and nag at you every day. They'll be hurt. They'll cry. They'll blame themselves. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She'll question if you did it because she didn't make school comfortable enough for you. Pain. Devastation. All in one. Who organizes your funeral? Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes? Those few older kids who used to give you daggers at school? They'll feel regret. They'll blame themselves. See, if you killed yourself today, you'll never know what might of happened tomorrow. You'll never know because you're dead. Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead. Your family hates themselves for it. Your bestfriend then falls into depression. Tears. Tears. More tears than a river. All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care. Right? You are loved. By many. Someone right now is thinking of you. And right now, I'm thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide. You are beautiful. No matter if you're black, white, homo-sexual, tall, short, overweight, anorexic, anything. You are beautiful. You want to kill yourself? Think about it first. There's no coming back. And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many. You are creating more tears than you led yourself to. You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain. Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you. You are beautiful. And you are never ever alone. Do you still think no one cares? ♥