Triggering (SH): Why am I still here?

[grae96]

I'm ready to just end all of this, nobody wants me I'm fat ugly and stupid. I Can't do anything right anymore I don't know how much longer I can keep this pain. I guess by the time someone notices there is something wrong, with me it will be too late. I don't want to end my life but it's my only option right now, I could start cutting but its been 22days but even that doesn't affect me anymore.....

[JellyBean4986]

First of all your not fat, ugly, or stupid. Depression has a habit of making us think negative things about ourselves that are not true. That fact that you've posted this proves that your not stupid...your smart enough to reach out to people for help.

Its also really good that you haven't self harmed in 22days. You should be really proud of yourself for that. It's not easy to stop, and you've gone almost a month without doing it...thats huge!

Instead of waiting for someone to notice that something is wrong with you, I think you should tell someone how you feel. There are people in your life that care about you, and they will be devistated if anything ever happened to you. Give them the chance to help you. Have you ever talked to a doctor or counselor about how you feel? Medication and therapy can help alot. If you can talk to your parents, or a teacher, or school counselor, they can help you get the help you need.

If you ever want to talk pm me!

[SheaWords]

you're not fat, ugly, and stupid. I agree with jellybean, and that is all true. and if someone called u that, then they honestly are the stupid and ugly ones. People say those things about others to keep the negative focus off them, by directing it to someone else. they're stupid.
and 22 days? thats amazing! try to not go back, try to keep pushing forward. you're strong, and i care for you, we all do. we're here to help

[grae96]

I see a therapist weekly am on two antidepressants and I see my psychiatrist routinely and I'm still like this...soooo Idk why I'm still here

[worthlesschild]

from the 3 or 4 sentences you wrote here, i dont think youre stupid. i dont think it really matters if someone is "not pleasing to look at" or "overweight". im sure youre not so bad as you think you are either, though. i know that saying that doesnt change anything, but (this is what my mom tells me) you really have to believe other people too about those things. unless they told you that. then dont listen to them. they would just be stupid for that, because what one person thinks is pretty might look ugly to someone else.

i agree with sheawords and jellybean...: you should be proud of fighting self harm so strongly for that long. keep trying for as long as you can bear it. and dont be afraid to get help. theres always someone who will let you depend on them for something. they want to help.

if you dont think you have a reason for being alive, cant you find one? as long as you continue not wanting to feel so miserable, you definitely want to live. i dont know. maybe im ridiculous or something. maybe you will think im full of shit. id like you to think about this a little at least. maybe one thing here could help?

i dont really have the right to say any of this when i always seem to feel similarly. im sorry.

[*Learningtobreathe*]

someone once told me, ur here for a reason. and i have started to believe tht. YOU ARE HERE FOR A REASON. ur here to love and be loved, help and be helped. there is someone out there who smiles just thinking about you. there is so much to be thankful for and u are loved. ur not ugly, we are all beautiful. ur not fat, u r phat (pretty, hot and tempting). ur not stupid, no one is.

[grae96]

Thank you guys I cut 2days ago. The support is great from you guys I'm trying to stay strong.