Depression, Suicide, Love(May be Triggering)

[sparkles]

Depression is taking me over. I feel like its just time to let go, leave everything behind and watch people enjoy life as im gone. Family doesn't like me and they make everything hard, they don't accept the way i show my emotions and yet im secretly getting help because im not aloud too. I feel like theres no one to trust anymore cuz people show me that i can and then prove me wrong...life just feels hopeless and not worth it anymore...I have no one to call mine and feel unloved nor will i ever feel loved. No one can accept me for who I am just because they kno my brother raped me and they find it uncomfortably awkward...I just think its time to leave everything behind..not like anyone would notice or care anyways

[JellyBean4986]

I'm really sorry that things are so hard right now hun. Know that things won't always be this bad. I think its really awesome that your secretly getting help. You need to make sure the person your talking to knows how bad things are and how bad your feeling right now...especially if your thinking about hurting yourself.
It sounds like your in a really hard situation with your family, but know that things won't always be like this. I'm not sure how old you are, but eventually when you are old enough you'll be able to live the life you want to live. If you give up now, that can never happen. So hold on, and give yourself a chance.
If you want to talk pm me!