Triggering (Suicide): uncertainty

[Ashamed]

every day i wake up wondering whether i will have a place to live or a dry place to sleep that night or the next day...IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORRYING!!! FUCK THIS!!!! The last 7 months for me have consisted of 2 homeless shelters, jail, a crisis center and being kicked out of 3 homes AND being turned down by everyone i know...other than my mother. and now that im living with her... her fiances children and parents are giving my mother hell for taking me in! IM DONE RUINING HER LIFE!
I've lived half way through hell and back and IM ONLY 18!!!!!
i was once told that this is nothing compared to what is yet to come...AND that lifes UPS AND DOWNS are a learning experience...WHAT am i supposed to take from this?...

[Childish Giggle]

Originally Posted by Ashamed

i was once told that this is nothing compared to what is yet to come...AND that lifes UPS AND DOWNS are a learning experience...WHAT am i supposed to take from this?...

You must have done somethings to land up in jail or to be kicked out of the home. Do you feel that what you did to land up in these situations was wrong? Or was all of it a a misunderstanding?
Life's ups and downs ARE a learning experience. Look back over your actions and their results. What went wrong? What mistakes did you make? Would you make this mistakes again in life? Its up to you how you want too see a situation. Even if you did make some mistakes, its okay. If you ask me I'll call these errors. A mistake in my dictionary is when you go on repeating this error without learning anything from it.
What is yet to come is difficult. But you have already seen the bad face of the world. You have nothing to fear. This fear of what is yet to come, fear that it is very bad, is for those who haven't yet seen the bad in life. You have seen it all, made errors. Now look back and try to find out what you did wrong. And when you face challenges in life, remember those mistakes. And remember not to repeat them.
Life is not all about the bad experiences though they are a very important part of it. They make you value the good experiences in life. No one would value the good moments of life had they not gone through something bad.
You can't change whatever you went through. But you can change the way you see it.

[Ashamed]

i ended up in jail because my father was drugged up and pushing me around so i beat the living shit outa him....okay?
i keep being kicked out cuz i dont have a job...i fill out applications 5 or 6 at a time each to different places...and its MY fault that im jobless!?....

[Childish Giggle]

Originally Posted by Ashamed

i ended up in jail because my father was drugged up and pushing me around so i beat the living shit outa him....okay?
i keep being kicked out cuz i dont have a job...i fill out applications 5 or 6 at a time each to different places...and its MY fault that im jobless!?....

Hey! Calm down. Take a deep breath. Its okay to be frustrated in a situation like this but too much anger will harm you. IS there anything else that happened?